smiles fade in the summer
rainy days are the best days to write. school starts in two weeks..woo exciting. i have so much shit to buy. and my parents, yeah both of them, have become more and more undependable. i wonder if i can even find a ride up there..? im excited tomorrow i get to hang out with lindsay and deanna..and i miss them so much. i guess the whole thing with lauren kinda pulled everyone apart. im so annoyed cause i kinda wasnt part of that. i was working for most of the summer. i visited lin today and she voiced her annoyance in a subtle way. but im looking to make up for them cause unknowingly i did take a side. we hitting up a block party for some softball action and drinking and passing out at my house. i need it. ive been thinking too much lately. maybe ill be dumb enough to call fitz. lets hope not.
god i dont know whats up with that boy and why i started liking him so quick. hes not really all that different from every other guy i hang out with him but then again...theres something about him. and i dont like guys. i mean..i havent liked anyone since my last relationship. and i always say if i meet someone and blow me away thats when ill actually bother. and i was fine for awhile. i mean i could care less about being single. everyone thought i was so sad or something and seriously i was such in a good place. then i met this kid, who in fact i went to pre k and such with and somehow he remembered me. when we hang out, its like all blurry the next day. i cant remember details. i remember when he came up to me and was like hi so cute...that little hawaiian. and hes has the best laugh. he's smart too and...well i could just go on. i met him before i left and...its just been driving me crazy. im making moves i guess? i'm terrible at flirting and all that bullshit. i come off very awkward. anyways, in our pre-k pic..he's sitting right below me. i just think its crazy.
what's even crazier is i went to hairo for advice.
this weather has been very much "the day after tomorrow" for me. i expect a tidal wave and new york freezing over soon. maybe everyone will start taking global warming a little more serious..probably not.
ive been talking to so many people from vegas lately. tiff and me text like every other day and i text justine and jorina here and there...and i just miss them so much. i miss justine's family and us just hanging around. there's no drama in that group of friends.
ugh, im on the desktop and i miss my baby mac. two weeks and counting. cant take much more of the fighting in the house or the bad mouthing between friends anymore. my russian roommate better teach me guitar and russian obvs.
goodnight.
god i dont know whats up with that boy and why i started liking him so quick. hes not really all that different from every other guy i hang out with him but then again...theres something about him. and i dont like guys. i mean..i havent liked anyone since my last relationship. and i always say if i meet someone and blow me away thats when ill actually bother. and i was fine for awhile. i mean i could care less about being single. everyone thought i was so sad or something and seriously i was such in a good place. then i met this kid, who in fact i went to pre k and such with and somehow he remembered me. when we hang out, its like all blurry the next day. i cant remember details. i remember when he came up to me and was like hi so cute...that little hawaiian. and hes has the best laugh. he's smart too and...well i could just go on. i met him before i left and...its just been driving me crazy. im making moves i guess? i'm terrible at flirting and all that bullshit. i come off very awkward. anyways, in our pre-k pic..he's sitting right below me. i just think its crazy.
what's even crazier is i went to hairo for advice.
this weather has been very much "the day after tomorrow" for me. i expect a tidal wave and new york freezing over soon. maybe everyone will start taking global warming a little more serious..probably not.
ive been talking to so many people from vegas lately. tiff and me text like every other day and i text justine and jorina here and there...and i just miss them so much. i miss justine's family and us just hanging around. there's no drama in that group of friends.
ugh, im on the desktop and i miss my baby mac. two weeks and counting. cant take much more of the fighting in the house or the bad mouthing between friends anymore. my russian roommate better teach me guitar and russian obvs.
goodnight.