another sunny day in californ. I. A.
well i'm tired. jordan came over earlier, then sean and mark came over to hang out for a while. they really broke the boredom, thanks fellas. charlie got picked up so his bitchass isnt buggin me anymore, god what a needy dog. talked to amber again tonight. i miss her alot. next weekend is going to be fun on the houseboat, i cant wait for that. the weekend after that... i'm not too sure about. the whole staying the night with kinda yer "ex-fling" like, way down south... i'm so uncomfortable about that whole thing. i trust amber, i have to. i love her too much not to trust her and i have to trust her judgment. its just wierd. but its like two weeks away i guess i shouldnt worry about it, and i'm not going to deny her the chance to go down south and see those bands because that wouldnt be right of me, and that would just say that i dont trust her. i just dont know... i know the history, and i guess that makes it worse. if there was ever a time for me to trust amber now would be that time. so i do, and i will. she's never given me any reason not too. what a ramble, long story short... the whole thing worries me, but i guess it shouldnt, because i love her.