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i have an appointment at 3pm tomorrow, the doctor wants to see me about my blood work.
i think i'm prepared if they tell me something is wrong with my blood count and it could be cancer. i think i think i'm prepared for that. i want to be prepared for the worst.
but the more this day has progressed the more it feels like hyperthyroidism. i had no idea that it was also associated with delusion. i've been having delusions when i wake up during sleep for i know at least a couple of years. but that could also mean fluid on the brain. see all these conditions have very similar symptoms, it's so hard to figure out what's going on.
Sweet Lord i hope i'm able to hear bad news. i just have to stay strong. i hate myself for not taking care of myself like i should've all along.
Praise Jesus for getting me through this far.
and thank you for everyone on my friends list for all the comments, prayers and positive thoughts. i appreciate it so much. i'd be lost without you all. ♥
i think i'm prepared if they tell me something is wrong with my blood count and it could be cancer. i think i think i'm prepared for that. i want to be prepared for the worst.
but the more this day has progressed the more it feels like hyperthyroidism. i had no idea that it was also associated with delusion. i've been having delusions when i wake up during sleep for i know at least a couple of years. but that could also mean fluid on the brain. see all these conditions have very similar symptoms, it's so hard to figure out what's going on.
Sweet Lord i hope i'm able to hear bad news. i just have to stay strong. i hate myself for not taking care of myself like i should've all along.
Praise Jesus for getting me through this far.
and thank you for everyone on my friends list for all the comments, prayers and positive thoughts. i appreciate it so much. i'd be lost without you all. ♥