I am walking away...
I broke up with Elish last night, and i figured we both could be adults about this. I feel like my heart has been ripped out from my chest, for the past three days i havent been able to sleep, i havent been able to eat, and i am just lethargic, in the sense i dont want to do anything but lay in bed and feel sorry for myself, although ice cream and M&M's help alittle. Well i feel bad enough we broke up but elish has to rub it in with text message's like I am an asshole, that i am fucking stupid for doing this and i am a coldhearted bastard, i guess she just wants me to feel worse, but i am not going to sink to her level and say anything bad about her and i wont do what she is doing. In the end she and I had to see this was coming, we had so many fights compared to good times, and we were just fighting too much for this to work. I love her and always will but i cant see myself with her anymore, even though i feel bad and my heart hurts like someone stabbed me with a knife, i figured maybe in the future after she was done with college if we remained friends, that maybe we could get back together, because maybe the stress from school, finals, her parents, work etc etc i think she is letting that get in the way too much. Well i am going to be stronge...but in the end i am weak and will miss her...but she deserve's better as do i....although we were good together for awhile...Love of the heart is hard to break
Peace..
Peace..