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"Scarborough Fair/Canticle" By- Simon & Garfunkel is a song everyone should have on thier mp3 players.
I know this sounds horrible, but, I cannot stand my father.
I don't hate him, because I don't hate anyone or anything. I say I do sometimes, but, i never really mean it. I just...he makes everything seem so much worse.
My dad isn't exactly the "warmest" guy you'll ever meet. He is at first, like...maybe the first month you meet him? But afterwards he tends to stop trying and it makes it feel like he doesn't care. Lately I haven't seen him much and when I do, it just seems like nothing can make him happy.
My dad is a very depressed man. He's an alcoholic, not the violent or angry kind rather...the very very sad kind. My mom divorced him about...4 years ago? Yeah, 4 years ago pretty much, maybe a little less. Well...my dad really isn't over it because, as he has told me many times while he's been drinking, he is still in love with her and would go back at any minute.
I feel really bad for the guy. He's lost so much over the past few years. He just recently went bankrupt, his best friend Bob is slowly losing it and we don't think he'll be alive much longer, he lost my mom, and he lost my older brother's relationship.
He is just...he's not okay. I know I should be there for him, because he's about to lose his girlfriend he's had the past two years, but I really don't know if I have the strength to go through this all with him again. He needs medical help for his liver and heart from all the smoking and drinking he's done but he just won't get it and continues to smoke & drink. I don't know, I've talked to him and tried but he doesn't listen.
I think I've lost him to the alcohol he's come to love =/
I don't know, I'm not really sad, rather....I feel angry&betrayed?
Everything that was stable in my life last year is now gone and I just don't want to accept that it's all gone. I'll be fine, sure, but accepting it might take a while.
PS - Another song you should all listen to; "Winter" by- Joshua Radin. Anything, really, by Joshua Radin is amazing actually...
PPS- Final Fantasy VII: Dirge of Cerberus isn't as good as everyone had hyped it up to be. I prefer the others a lot more =/
I know this sounds horrible, but, I cannot stand my father.
I don't hate him, because I don't hate anyone or anything. I say I do sometimes, but, i never really mean it. I just...he makes everything seem so much worse.
My dad isn't exactly the "warmest" guy you'll ever meet. He is at first, like...maybe the first month you meet him? But afterwards he tends to stop trying and it makes it feel like he doesn't care. Lately I haven't seen him much and when I do, it just seems like nothing can make him happy.
My dad is a very depressed man. He's an alcoholic, not the violent or angry kind rather...the very very sad kind. My mom divorced him about...4 years ago? Yeah, 4 years ago pretty much, maybe a little less. Well...my dad really isn't over it because, as he has told me many times while he's been drinking, he is still in love with her and would go back at any minute.
I feel really bad for the guy. He's lost so much over the past few years. He just recently went bankrupt, his best friend Bob is slowly losing it and we don't think he'll be alive much longer, he lost my mom, and he lost my older brother's relationship.
He is just...he's not okay. I know I should be there for him, because he's about to lose his girlfriend he's had the past two years, but I really don't know if I have the strength to go through this all with him again. He needs medical help for his liver and heart from all the smoking and drinking he's done but he just won't get it and continues to smoke & drink. I don't know, I've talked to him and tried but he doesn't listen.
I think I've lost him to the alcohol he's come to love =/
I don't know, I'm not really sad, rather....I feel angry&betrayed?
Everything that was stable in my life last year is now gone and I just don't want to accept that it's all gone. I'll be fine, sure, but accepting it might take a while.
PS - Another song you should all listen to; "Winter" by- Joshua Radin. Anything, really, by Joshua Radin is amazing actually...
PPS- Final Fantasy VII: Dirge of Cerberus isn't as good as everyone had hyped it up to be. I prefer the others a lot more =/