chapter 13
i think i'm going to start writing in this thing again. i need an outlet.
i don't have a best friend right now. its hard not having a best friend.
i have friends, and i am making more, but there's no one who i feel like i could call at any time and they would always be there.
i know i am going in the right direction, and i will end up in someplace good, but right now its really difficult. i'm lonely. i'm used to having someone there all the time; mike was there all the time. and if he wasnt, my annoying family was around to bug me. but now that i'm in my new place i'm alone a good part of the time.
normal people can be alone and enjoy it. thats what i was looking forward to when i became single. i want to be able to do that. but i just get really depressed.
it is nice to be needed. no one needs me (besides my cat and my family, but they dont count).
monday i went to jammin java and saw yanna, ben, sofia, jian, and rob
then tuesday i hung out with jian and laura
today i'm going to meet up with jian, and then georgia is supposed to hang out with me tonight but based on recent events i am skeptical about that one.
saturday night i'm going to electric 6 and i plan on just dancing and having fun
monday night is ben's birthday party at the rock and roll hotel. THAT i am totally excited about.
georgia also wanted to hang out saturday night but i think i will be at the concert late
i'm going to keep trying to hook up with lucy
and when nathan gets back from NYC i will definitely visit him.
and i'm sure i'll see carlos in the next couple of days but i'm too mad at him right now to think about it.
its really pathetic that i have to list off my social events to try to make myself feel better.
just stay busy dana.
i don't have a best friend right now. its hard not having a best friend.
i have friends, and i am making more, but there's no one who i feel like i could call at any time and they would always be there.
i know i am going in the right direction, and i will end up in someplace good, but right now its really difficult. i'm lonely. i'm used to having someone there all the time; mike was there all the time. and if he wasnt, my annoying family was around to bug me. but now that i'm in my new place i'm alone a good part of the time.
normal people can be alone and enjoy it. thats what i was looking forward to when i became single. i want to be able to do that. but i just get really depressed.
it is nice to be needed. no one needs me (besides my cat and my family, but they dont count).
monday i went to jammin java and saw yanna, ben, sofia, jian, and rob
then tuesday i hung out with jian and laura
today i'm going to meet up with jian, and then georgia is supposed to hang out with me tonight but based on recent events i am skeptical about that one.
saturday night i'm going to electric 6 and i plan on just dancing and having fun
monday night is ben's birthday party at the rock and roll hotel. THAT i am totally excited about.
georgia also wanted to hang out saturday night but i think i will be at the concert late
i'm going to keep trying to hook up with lucy
and when nathan gets back from NYC i will definitely visit him.
and i'm sure i'll see carlos in the next couple of days but i'm too mad at him right now to think about it.
its really pathetic that i have to list off my social events to try to make myself feel better.
just stay busy dana.