(no subject)
i found myself tonight
standing in the midst of holiday shoppers
crying babies and over-protective mothers
in Borders, of all places
unlike me
you might peg me
for a local bookstore kind of girl
you know, cafe au laits and
mocha swirls
made from organic 2% or some shit
"finding everything okay?!"
says too happy
too peppy
too much coffee for tonight, don't you think? don't you really think so?
saleswoman
i want to say,
FUCK NO!
bitch, i'm standing infront of the self help section!
feels like someone put a bullet through my chest this evening
am i bleeding?
and your smile, as fake as it may be, is so full of hope
it makes me want to cry
like snot and tears and red puffy eyes cry
i can't find anything
let alone a book!
"yes,
everything is just fine."
standing in the midst of holiday shoppers
crying babies and over-protective mothers
in Borders, of all places
unlike me
you might peg me
for a local bookstore kind of girl
you know, cafe au laits and
mocha swirls
made from organic 2% or some shit
"finding everything okay?!"
says too happy
too peppy
too much coffee for tonight, don't you think? don't you really think so?
saleswoman
i want to say,
FUCK NO!
bitch, i'm standing infront of the self help section!
feels like someone put a bullet through my chest this evening
am i bleeding?
and your smile, as fake as it may be, is so full of hope
it makes me want to cry
like snot and tears and red puffy eyes cry
i can't find anything
let alone a book!
"yes,
everything is just fine."