ugh..
right now, im having really mixed feelings. like, nathaniel wanted me to end it. so i did. and you know how much i wanna kill myself right now? soo bad. because i just hurt the nicest person in the world. and now she hates me with a passion. but, i cant change it, so im gonna have to live with the fact that her and all of her friends hate me. so hil, i hate myself for this. i really hope yur happy cuz i deserve it.
nothing really happened lately. shit was given to my really good friend and there was nothing i could do about it without fucking screaming at them. but i cant, because they're my friends. sooo, im staying out of it. even though its all my fault.
however, thats what he wanted. and what he wanted wasnt a long-distance relationship. and i guess hes taking the shit his "friends" are giving him. ouch. my greatest friends are happy, but why do i feel so bad? i have tons of friends, a great boyfriend, and about everything i need, but it wont leave me alone. and i really just wanna shoot myself. thats how bad i feel.
no need for comments. *I love you Michael*
nothing really happened lately. shit was given to my really good friend and there was nothing i could do about it without fucking screaming at them. but i cant, because they're my friends. sooo, im staying out of it. even though its all my fault.
however, thats what he wanted. and what he wanted wasnt a long-distance relationship. and i guess hes taking the shit his "friends" are giving him. ouch. my greatest friends are happy, but why do i feel so bad? i have tons of friends, a great boyfriend, and about everything i need, but it wont leave me alone. and i really just wanna shoot myself. thats how bad i feel.
no need for comments. *I love you Michael*