ramblings
Most of my posts are bred from some thought that won't get out of my head, an usual mood, a rare occurance, a message that i need to get out, but this post really isn't any of those. It's been a little bit since I've posted but i don't feel the need to say anything. My life hasn't changed much is the past month or two. I still work 11p-7a mon -fri. i still drive all the way to philly and back on every single one of those days. I still long for a meaningful relationship. (Who doesn't?) I still try to keep myself entertained through electronic or alcoholic means. I still fail at that more often than I succeed. I still get stood up, and passed over. I still waste my time on lost causes. I still wish I was in better shape. I still don't do enough about it. I still think about a college education. I still avoid making the decision.
I lost my checkbook. It was in a wawa bag on my floor(yeah not the smartest place for it) and I threw it away when cleaning for the party this past weekend. This is more of a pain in the ass since apparently it was the last of my checks, and now I need to go in and order a new batch. Hopefully I won't need one before my new checks come in and I guess i won't be paying my aunt back until these new checks come in.
I'm really getting fed up with my shift. Not the people, or the work so much but just the timing. I love having my weekends off and i would never complain about that, but I'd love to have my 12 hours shifts back. I'd love to have a few extra evenings where I didn't need to vanish like a ghost at 10pm. When I talk to any of my friends and they telll me how they just got home from the bar or just got home from the movies on any weeknight I tend to get a bit upset. I mean, if a dayshifter wants to go out and have a bit of extra fun during the week, the only thing stopping them is a need to sleep/function the next day. I'm stopped physically by being in another state, at work. I'm sure this will only get worse as spring turns to summer and people return to the shore and the boardwalk.
Is now too early to begin planning for my birthday? How does the word party sound to everyone? That's the beginning of August for those of you unschooled in the knowledge of my birthdate. Hopefully I won't be stuck in a hospital waiting on Jessi to pop out our son, but one can never tell how fate will orchestrate these things.
Speaking of dates, what is everyone doing Friday may 4th? My sister is playing at Memories again and it looks like she might actually have a "band"! Or in this case a bassist and a dummer to back her up! I have to work that night, hopefully i'll be able to get out of that but if not I'll still need a bunch of people to come out and help me inspire the crowd. That's May 4th, next Friday... seven days from today. Next week. Friday. At night, probably around 9pm start time. though with memories you never can be sure. Be there or be square. Music and booze what more could you want?
Why is it that every night I'm busy, meebo crashes, the servers are down, or i'm not at a computer everyone and their cousin in online looking for a conversation? And every night when i'm bored, meebo works perfectly, and i'm staring at a computer for 8 straight hours I end up having a short 3 minute conversation about how tired you are and then i sit here staring at a barren buddy list? How does that work???