Apr 16, 2004 22:51
must see kill bill vol. 2, i keep hoping gogo's psychotic ass will be ressurected then she'll leap out the screen and marry me; also so i can see if i'm a better fighter than her.
ow, i have a cyst in my eye and that damn ossan matsuo-san made me bite my tongue in jiujitsu yesterday. so my eye hurts when i blink and my tongue hurts when i chew. i have a savate fight on sunday, i dunno if it's going to be judged or not but beto's gonna be fighting and he's in my weight class too so that might turn out kinda scary >=0. if i fought beto, ooh bitch, i'mma get so rocked. my cardio's all screwed up right now, it's all focused on groundfighting cardio and my boxing cardio is down the toilet. yesterday, i grappled for 40 minutes straight and i didn't get tired at all but while boxing it took me only three minutes to get winded. it's gonna turn out like the last fight, i'mma get winded in the first round, i know it. i don't want to fight that ossan or darren again, i've fought both of them before and i wanna fight somebody i think i can at least beat. actually, i bet i can beat that ossan. so that leaves beto or chris in my weight class, beto's a silver glove on the usa national team and chris, he's not gonna do well in his first savate fight even if i'm out of shape, his feet aren't like mine and everyone at the gym considers me the one with the most savate potential since beto. it's gonna suck if i get hit in my left eye or with a hook to the right cheek cuz of the cyst and the cut on my tongue. whatever, i'mma try to train a little tomorrow but it's kinda late to do anything to my cardio, maybe just mentally prepare for it. ring fights are so unnerving, jiujitsu tournaments are so much more relaxed. i need more capoeira to work on my cardio. i'mma go train with cleo next week and mestre boneco's having a seminar in may, someone from the capoeira school will finally see me. i'm at least a raw/yellow cord level without ever training officially with any capoeirista other than cleo. maybe he'll give me my next cord at the next festival.i haven't had much free time lately, school is so time consuming and i'm only taking two academic classes. the workload is really heavy, i'm so glad that i only have to worry about these two classes, if i had another one i'd probably give up, fail, or just collapse in the middle of it all.
i've been working on an essay on california education for the past week or two, it's coming along well and the research is quite easy to find since it's an issue that's very much talked about. my professor read my first draft over and said that it was good so far and that it's not as lyrical as my other papers but that's understandable because this is a research paper. writing 2 is going to be hell when i have to write the dreaded 25 page research paper. if anyone has anything to say about california's education system, more specifically the process in which money is allocated to schools, then lemme hear it, i need all the research and support i can find.i was feeling all proud of myself in accounting class last week when my group scored a 36 on a quiz with a possible of 25 points giving me exactly enough extra credit to turn the C+ on my last exam into an A- giving me a total grade of 90.9%, lucky huh? I was originally going to drop the score on my last exam because we're allowed to eliminate our lowest exam score from the total in case we bomb or we miss an exam. if i had done that then i would still have an A- but now with the extra credit i have an A- without using up my drop. so i was gonna save it in case i did bomb the next test.
now in my accounting class, you're not allowed to take an exam unless you've completed all your homework so if you don't have it all done, you fail the exam. this happened to me on the first exam of last semester and i immediately was forced to use my drop then. so i thought my test was on wednesday and i scrambled to finish all my hw but i was too tired and i conceded defeat just not showing up for class because you get kicked out anyways. so i took an F on it, it's ok because i still have an A i told myself. well, on thursday i get an e-mail from my prof, and in his ramblings he mentioned "good luck on the test on monday". i was immediately confused and tried to confirm if the test was indeed on monday and not wednesday and sure enough it was on monday. i lucked out again because now i have four extra days to finish around a dozen problems and exercises. it seems i might actually make it out of accounting 1b with an A, imagine that.my dad is coming back on monday. i could care less where he's spending his time, i just wish he wouldn't waste so much money at a time when the economy's sucking and money's tight for us. my mom's been stressing like crazy to pay the bills and i had to start tutoring and teaching martial arts to help her out. i'm definitely gonna give him a piece of my mind when he comes back. god, i have to pick him up on monday too, i have an exam then have to get through rush hour to LAX and damn, i just have a whole mess of stuff to worry about that day.
i miss a lot of friends and family right now which is ironic because i recently found myself alienated from a large part of my family because of constant drama and something happpened(which i'm not going to divulge) that broke the camel's back. maybe it's not ironic... actually, it isn't at all. i just need the good people in my life more right now. i'm not like depressed or like totally bummed out at all, i mean, not even in the least. it's a simple longing that's all, a simple longing to see some people.
ja-chan, you're always around and i know you're still here for me.
joe-kun, i dunno why we don't get together more often but i still know you're always there for me.
stephanie mei-mei, i miss you already, come back soon okay? i miss our late night talks already too.
nin-mui, you're gonna be gone real soon and i feel bad for not talking to you much this year, i just didn't want my darling mui to be bothered by her annoying gor during this time when we're both really really stressed out by school.
lan-jei, jei-liu, soi-hia, you guys are all grown up now and i guess i am too, we shouldn't need eachother anymore, just know that i love and miss you guys.
ashley mei-mei, i miss you too but i'mma stay away from all that high school drama, you'll still be around so i'm not worried.i need time-off from everything, just to be with myself, not just a vacation but i need to move somewhere temporarily. several people i know have lived in tokyo for a while and then came back. that's sounds so nice to me, i want that a lot. i want to get myself a little apartment in tokyo with just a tv, a computer, a kitchen, and a bed. i want to live there for a year to brush up on my nihongo. i want to support myself by teaching and training martial arts there. i want a motorcycle to get around. i want. i promise i'll come back. it's just like having a different life from this one. please? i promise.