capoeirista badass
serious lack of updates lately. i barely can remember what's happened lately but then again i'm trying to stay away from the "what the hell did i do today?" kind of blog. i'm not consistent lately, with both the amount that i blog and being able to write more interesting and meaningful entries. i feel a good one coming on.in regards to sept. 11, i thought that we should honor the memories of the victims and keep them and their loved ones in our hearts but that's really all. excuse me if i sound cold-hearted but i acted like it was just another day. i don't want to let the acts of a few heartless people change the way i want to live. selfish in some ways but i don't have to explain my actions to anybody.this week has been so tiring for me.
my foot is much better now; there's still a small amount of pain but it's nothing i can't live with. i can walk normally and i did exercise today so it's not much of a problem anymore. the rest of my body is another story. i'm just physically banged up right now. my arm won't stop aching, feels like i should just rip it off or something like that. tired, no idea why, everything just aches. i remember just earlier this year that i was feeling nearly invincible, now i feel so tired. i have a better grasp of how frail the human body really is now, i guess i'm not like wolverine. god my back.do you ever get the feeling that people don't like you deep down? i have this paranoid fear that people dislike me but don't say anything. it's like, i wonder, what do they really think? i'm not one to worry what other people think of me but i do think there's a problem if someone dislikes me and feigns friendship. the only reason i fear this about my relationships with other people is that i am guilty of this myself, disliking people deep down but i do it because i don't like truly hate some and feel it's cruel to tell them "you suck" when i'm pissed at them. hypocritical i know but i believe hypocrisy is inherent in humanity, we can't get away from it so we shouldn't waste our time.
my foot is much better now; there's still a small amount of pain but it's nothing i can't live with. i can walk normally and i did exercise today so it's not much of a problem anymore. the rest of my body is another story. i'm just physically banged up right now. my arm won't stop aching, feels like i should just rip it off or something like that. tired, no idea why, everything just aches. i remember just earlier this year that i was feeling nearly invincible, now i feel so tired. i have a better grasp of how frail the human body really is now, i guess i'm not like wolverine. god my back.do you ever get the feeling that people don't like you deep down? i have this paranoid fear that people dislike me but don't say anything. it's like, i wonder, what do they really think? i'm not one to worry what other people think of me but i do think there's a problem if someone dislikes me and feigns friendship. the only reason i fear this about my relationships with other people is that i am guilty of this myself, disliking people deep down but i do it because i don't like truly hate some and feel it's cruel to tell them "you suck" when i'm pissed at them. hypocritical i know but i believe hypocrisy is inherent in humanity, we can't get away from it so we shouldn't waste our time.