konoyode, konoyaro
i've known this, that friends come and go and that self-reliance is the smartest way, but the unwanted idealism within me kept fighting. it is true, however, and such maudlin sentimentality towards those unneccessary things in life almost sickens me. by things i mean, close friendships. by no means i am not against having friends, i believe that it is foolish to believe that close friends will always be there for you, humanity is inherently selfish and fickle so don't believe in it. there is one of my agendas.i do not want to rely on anyone. i want to be recognized but i also i do not want any sentimentality. i find it annoying. do me a favor and let me do what i need to on my own. i may be pushing others away but i feel that my being reticent and aloof is my way and i have always stood up for what i believe no matter what happens because of it. orei mada wa saikyo dou ichiban jenai, soushide, omaira wa orei no raibalsu. to one person specifically. omai ima wa orei no tomodachi jenai, oreira no yume wa chigau, sorei wa sayonara. omai wakechata.i will pretend for now that we are ok but after we are no longer obligated to be friends, don't come looking for me.