meme meeee
hung out with jeff the other night...interesting. We watched Kinsey, it was good. Slept over there. Interesting. INTERESTING INTERESTING evening. hmmph. Wen tout with Stu and got mogwai and sleater-kinney cd's at soundgarden, some tea and then took pictures in the city. Baltimore is so boring. Seriously. Maybe i will think the same of philly once i know it, inside and out. I fucking hate people that take advantage of me. I can be nice but deep inside I fucking hate them. I am always helping people. SOmeone need to help me. I cant stand it.
Argh and people think they are so fucking awesome and amazing when really they are not awesome in any particular way AT ALL. think about this: if someone asked your friends to describe you what would they say? I mean, if it was an impartial view?
People who didnt know me truly but knew about me would say, "shes very loud and peppy and nice and short and she is a good writer and she can draw and she is funny"
People who know me sort of well would say "she is loud and nice most of the time, she is an okay writer but everything the writes is sort of a little below the surface. she is demanding and controlling when allowed to be."
people who seriously know me well would say, "she is funny, but sad. she has good intentions but she has no idea what she is doing. she is a people-pleaser until she doesnt feel she needs to try anymore. she is addicted to other people and secretly cares too much about appearances. she has an obsession with food and not-food. she might be slightly bi-polar, we have seen her flip out many times. she attracts intelligent assholes and idiot addicts and likes it, prefers it. she wants to help people but its always the people that she can't help that she ruins herself for. She dates (marries) people she feels can slightly control her. When she is in control she takes advantage and is bossy. Shes done this same routine over and over and over and has developed an amnesia toward her emotional past. she gives up too easily and is over-spontaneous."
Hm. maybe no one should ever REALLY know me.
Argh and people think they are so fucking awesome and amazing when really they are not awesome in any particular way AT ALL. think about this: if someone asked your friends to describe you what would they say? I mean, if it was an impartial view?
People who didnt know me truly but knew about me would say, "shes very loud and peppy and nice and short and she is a good writer and she can draw and she is funny"
People who know me sort of well would say "she is loud and nice most of the time, she is an okay writer but everything the writes is sort of a little below the surface. she is demanding and controlling when allowed to be."
people who seriously know me well would say, "she is funny, but sad. she has good intentions but she has no idea what she is doing. she is a people-pleaser until she doesnt feel she needs to try anymore. she is addicted to other people and secretly cares too much about appearances. she has an obsession with food and not-food. she might be slightly bi-polar, we have seen her flip out many times. she attracts intelligent assholes and idiot addicts and likes it, prefers it. she wants to help people but its always the people that she can't help that she ruins herself for. She dates (marries) people she feels can slightly control her. When she is in control she takes advantage and is bossy. Shes done this same routine over and over and over and has developed an amnesia toward her emotional past. she gives up too easily and is over-spontaneous."
Hm. maybe no one should ever REALLY know me.