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Busy busy busy.
The days are a total whirlwind it seems, but in a pleasant way. The Lynx keeps me productive, I'm spending more time in the kitchen, and even though living arrangements are not what we want them to be right now, Rys and I are throwing around ideas...plotting for the future.
I met Jack's mother several nights ago. It seems our "brotherhood" is forming along well--Wesh, Jack and me--that even though I don't know Jack as well as Wesh, he talked about me freely to his mother. Adopted mother, I should say. I envy their bond a bit...it wasn't that long ago that I did Jack's first tattoo. A hoof on his heart, in honor of the Tauren who had found him near dead in Storm Peaks.
I don't really remember how Wesh met Jack, only that he said they could be twins. They really could, almost. Jack's a bit shorter, looks constantly tired, and sports a rather wicked goatee. Still, they're similar enough that it would be more surprising to find out that they aren't related by blood but rather by choice.
Though Jack and Wesh have the sea as their common ground and is probably the biggest thing that ties them together--they always seem to be doing something--I find Jack to be even more easygoing than Wesh. He has a much more casual approach to life, and seems to just want to enjoy it. That's not to say he doesn't have his serious side either. To me, Wesh has an edge to him, a sharp sense of his morals and he takes them to heart.
That instantly goes down the tubes when they drink though. Then it's typical boy shenanigans. I'm the "good" brother that doesn't really fit in, but I have my own little niche. I guess someone needs to ground things out, since I'm not as lively as they are.
Returning to the topic of Jack's mother, I found her to be very pleasant. Chikapu is a very calm, quiet Tauren who loves tea. I was a nervous mess the whole time, but Jack stayed beside me and gave me his support. He's wanting to get a back piece done and I invited for her to come watch the process as well--she seemed rather intrigued on how I worked. Jack and I really bonded that day, I felt. We discussed our fears. I tried to relieve his, but I'm not so good at things like that.
I've also taken up an apprentice that has actually has blown me out of the water. I don't know if she realizes just how talented she is, and I'm stunned that she's going to me to learn how to become a tattoo artist. I'm self taught. While I'm moderately successful and I have satisfied customers, it makes me nervous thinking about teaching someone else. What if I am not a good teacher? It doesn't help that Donni is a woman--though a rather manly military sort of woman that could probably break me in two--so there's that anxiety on top of another anxiety. I had her paint Lady Vashj with minimal use of the color blue and she returned with something impressive. She did her research and produced a piece that was true to the Lady's character while keeping to my demands. It's stunning in all honesty, even if it is of a naga.
I really have no idea what I'm doing, and it shows, doesn't it? I'm not going to give up. She came ot me because I'm the "best", and I desperately need to get over my issues with women. So here's for the best.
I have planted a lemon tree on my land in Eversong, and I plan on planting a cherry and an apple tree as well. I love the idea of having fresh fruit available, and trees don't seem to be so care intensive as other plants. Rys, however, wants raspberry vines as well and sun knows what. Aren't raspberry vines prickly? I want something that won't leave me scratched up, but if he wants them...he can pick them. I'll invest in some good gloves, or is half the fun getting juice on your fingers?
The idea of having a large and personal garden/orchard really caught Rys' attention. I like to take him out to the land from time to time, to get him away from the city and let him relax. I asked about building a house someday, years down the road, but Rys surprised me.
He suggested we start on it late this year. Color be blindsided. I bought the land for that very reason--I love the flat, don't misunderstand--but down the road I dreamed of having a proper home and kids someday. I'm going to discuss it again with him, however. We always stressed that we weren't going to rush anything. I have always been cautious of that and respected his wishes...he hadn't been in a relationship in five years, after all. I know he feels the same--he's treated me with the same care. We both want to make sure we want everything that happens between us and we know we have some time for it. I just want to do better than what I did with Aellundras. I'm not perfect, but I try. Maybe that's why I stress about it from time to time.
Time to open the Lynx. Goodbye for now, journal.