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I know Aellundras did something to them. They're afraid of me. The goblin has bags under his eyes, could barely handle giving me the new contract, and his crewmen are avoiding eye contact with me. They're working quickly, as if the Lynx is haunted and they don't want to be here at all.
While I don't really care if he gave the goblins nightmares of having his gold taken away, I don't think it good to do it on those you hired--in their haste to be finished they may do a poor job. I'm going to have to talk to him about it. I hope they do their job right.
I was bad and snuck upstairs to bathe. I didn't peek at anything, but I figure I will be in trouble for using the remodeled bathroom anyways. I couldn't help it--I wanted to soak there. I hadn't realized how bloodied I was from killing the wolf I fed him--I was so sticky, my body hair was plastered against me. It hurt to clean it, but for some reason I felt like I needed to be clean here and not wash myself at the Spire.
I need to talk to Lindir. It seems like he has some things he wants to talk to me about, and I think talking to him about Kae will help me. We've got to stop bickering. He's off to Nagrand with his boys for a few days, and then he's going to come talk to me. I can't help but feel like it's my fault, all of it, but Kae is not entirely blameless. There is a lot I can do better, I know, but I wonder if Kae even thinks it's worth it? But I know that if Kae didn't care we still wouldn't be friends. I'm just so paranoid. I've got to get over myself.
I don't know how long the contractors are going to be here. I desperately need to get some furniture here, so I'm not sitting on the bar counter with my shoes off like some kind of hooligan. Once the contractors are finally finished I'll tell Aell that I want to be able to do some work downstairs first. I want the Lynx to open soon.
Looking up, seeing Kae's wagon through the front window...
I wish I was more like them, then I wouldn't be here today. It would be easier, and I would get to be so much more fun, instead of the fucked up individual I am today.
I wish you were home already, Aell.