It doesn't feel like christmas
It doesn't feel like christmas time right now and I hate it. Maybe its just because I am gettin older and I am not gettin to do the things I used to do to get ready for christmas. I don't think I will bake christmas cookies, I wont get to fight with my mom the day after christmas to take things back or even get out of bed. Its really weird. Maybe some of you all will understand what I am goin through, but most will not. Its something that happens to me every year around this time. maybe one day i will break down and explain it in here, but right now I am not ready to be that open and that vulnerable in my journal.
This weekend was one of a bit of a shocker for me. I was sitting at the dinner table with my whole family there and kevin and I came to a major realization that this is where in my life I was supposed to be. I made the right decision dating kevin in the first place and moving out of my house on my own terms. I felt a respect from my family that I have never felt before.
This weekend was one of a bit of a shocker for me. I was sitting at the dinner table with my whole family there and kevin and I came to a major realization that this is where in my life I was supposed to be. I made the right decision dating kevin in the first place and moving out of my house on my own terms. I felt a respect from my family that I have never felt before.