This is just a oneshot! I wrote it a few days ago!
Title: "Speechless."
Author: villegirl17 aka Brittley
Summary: How Ville really feels about his relationship with Bam...to the lyrics "Speechless" by dearly beloved Micheal Jackson
Rating:PG-13
Disclaimer: Nothing I say here is real.
A/N: I was feeling down and had to write this when this song came on my mp3 player because is cheers me up a bit.
I sigh watching you smile for the camera as another one of your little projects gets off the ground. That smile reminds me of all the silly things we do or rather did together when we were younger. An ache slides up my arms and travels to my heart as I feel it speed up. I don't know what it is about you, but you make me feel so very different. So alive when I am around you. It's like an invisible field of magic you wheel around my heart, and I only wish I could explain it to you.
Your love is magical that's how I feel,
but i have not the words yet to explain
God is the grace for expressions of passion,
but there are worlds and worlds of way to explain
to tell you how I feel, but I am...
You saunter over to my side and pull me in the house saying you want to talk to me alone. Of all the tiny gestures you make while pulling me by the arm, that serious look on your face and in your eyes sends shivers throughout me. I follow until we are alone and you let me go. Breathing deeply, you ask me where have I been lately and ask for an excuse why I don't visit as often. I claim work and you accept it before pulling me into your embrace. The waves and waves of pleasure and calm I feel in your arms can not be measured in words as I close my eyes I feel tears form. There is nothing absolutely nothing that can describe what I feel right now.
Speechless speechless
that's how you make me feel
though I'm with you, I am far away
and nothing is for real
That night I fell asleep late not due to the jetlag or the silly antics of the day. No I fell to sleep late because I was so confused. Nothing could stop this strange feeling I have for you whenever we hold hands, smile and laugh together, talk on the phone, or simply sit side by side. I was so giddy that all hopes of sleep had long dispersed themselves from within me. This I realize is why I remain as far from you as possible sometimes. It all becomes a bit much.
when I'm with you I'm lost for words
I don't know what to say
my head's spinning like a carousel
so silently I pray
Helpless and hopeless
that's how I feel inside
nothing's real but all is possible
if god is on my side
I sigh rolling over onto my side with my head in my hand. I thought of the first time I stayed at your house and you slept in the same room with me. I was so nervous that night as you wrapped an arm around my waist and told me to get to sleep. I imagined that night that you felt the warmth that had spread throughout me like I did. The moon had been shining in on us from your window and unable to help myself, I turned over to look at you. You were sleep but god were you beautiful by moonlight. I too was bathe in it but in my mind I dulled in comparison to you beauty. I had to look away then to breathe or I think I would have passed out. I only wish my dear Brandon that you knew what you do to me.
when I'm with you, I'm in the light
but I can not be found
after a while I'm standing in
the place called hollow ground
Speechless speechless
that's how you make me feel
though I'm with you, I am far away
and nothing is for real
Just as I was about to cry I suppose from all the memories of you, I hear the door open. I pretend to be asleep thinking you'll go away and leave me with my thoughts. However, I don't think you will and I soon get my answer as your form lays down behind me. You whisper my name, and when you recieve no answer you move closer. I feel you naked chest touching my back and I felt scorched but soothed all at once and I relax. Your lips are kissing the back of my neck as you wrap an arm around me, just like the first time, and quickly you fall to sleep. I eventually turn over and slowly reach up until I have a hand running down your face. I smile going to sleep too knowing I would do anything for you.
I go anywhere
can do anything
just to touch your face
there's no mountain high
I can not climb
I'm humble in your grace
Speechless speechless
that's how you make me feel
though I'm with you, I am lost for words
and nothing is for real
Speechless speechless
that's how you make me feel
though I'm with you, I am far away
and nothing is for real
Speechless speechless
that's how you make me feel
though I'm with you, I am lost for words
and nothing is for real
When I wake up the next morning, I don't expect to find myself within your arms still but I am. It takes me a moment to realize all the details. When I do, I smile thinking you must have felt the same as I do. Maybe you'll never say it but I know deep down you do. I look up to see if you are still sleep and to my surprise you are watching me.
"What?"
"Nothing Willa I just wanted to say you're beautiful in the morning."
"Bam?? "
"Shh...I love you too."
I float hearing that and then having your lips pressed against mine. I have waited my whole life to name this feeling and that name is love.
Your love is magical
that's how I feel
but in you prescence
I am lost for words
words like...like...I love you
*hopefully it didn't suck!*