There's more love in this world than I could ever touch.
Title: "The Guilty Affair." (2/?)
Author: villegirl17 aka Brittley
Summary: A one night stand that almost costs Ville everything.
Rating: PG-13-NC-17 (definitely changes status quickly)
Paring: VAM, Ville and Jussi69 or Vussi
Disclaimer: Sure it's real, just like me being rich!
A/N: I was just thinking about how hot Jussi is and wanted to write something smutty for him. Has nothing to do with the holiday, because I wrote this in late January.
Ch. 2
Once inside Jussi's front door, Ville waltzed over to the black velvet couch. Jussi followed sighing as his body made contact with the fabric.
"You ready to tell me why you're so upset?"
Ville looked at him hating that he could read him so easily. He had always been able to pick things like silent cues up from the other Finn, unlike with Bam who needed every emotional issue spelled out for him in capital letters.
"Just had a rather shitty month so far. I feel like there's always one problem after another you know?"
"Yeah but what's got you standing outside in the fucking cold like a Finnish snowman?"
Ville smiled at that before shutting his eyes and leaning his head back. To be a vampire, he definitely liked the heat and the toastiness of the house was getting to Ville, and he really didn't think he wanted to discuss Bam now.
"Let's talk after we order some food. I'm depressed and starving so my treat."
Jussi jumped up so fast to retrieve the phone, he almost stumbled over his feet sending a half-hearted bout of giggles from Ville. Jussi just flicked him off before dialing a number that was probably a pizza joint that he kept on speed dial for late night studio recordings.
"Your idea and your money, how can I pass that up?"
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Three slices later for Jussi and a half of a slice for Ville and he decided he could stop stalling. The way Ville saw it, he had to get the hopeless feelings out of his head before they created a pocket so deep he'd never be able to think about anything else.
"Its always the same thing with Bam. I mean, I get that I'm like the secretary on the side, but he should be here when he says he will. Maybe I'm narcissitic but I do believe he's only staying with Missy out of some fucking guilt he feels towards his parents, her parents, or whatever. I just wish it were easier, or that I was drinking again."
Ville said drowning his soda in mock gesture to it being a real beer like old times. He did feel better for talking about his issue but they were still there and speaking about them somehow made them more real. More unable to be made better, and to top it all off, he felt like a fucking pansy. He rolled his eyes at nothing in particular keeping his full attention focused anywhere but on Jussi. He felt sadden that Linde and Jussi were the only two men he could talk to like this and Bam wasn't. With Bam, even starting a serious conversation could be a hassle sometimes. Instead of wanting to hear Ville saying how much he missed him, the American would rather have him screaming for mercy and his name while he repeatedly took him to the realm of pleasure. He shivered remembering how useless he was when Bam controlled his body.
"Maybe he really did try Ville but you know, he just couldn't make it here. Besides it's still winter here and nobody wants to come to Finland in the winter."
Jussi tried to make the serious gloomy mood that was settling lighter. It worked a little but Ville still was in a pissy mood. Jussi smiled some knowing that what made Ville sad was what made him unique. He thought it was strange that the two lovers Bam and Ville couldn't just see that being in an affair wasn't something you could live with and not expect unhappiness at times. He didn't tell the older man this because he didn't need it shoved at him. He thought about his own life and unhappiness. He hated being so truthful with himself but there was definitely some gloom brewing around his relationship also.
"What about you?"
Ville asked him and he snapped back to their conversation with a confused look on his face. Was he really that transparent?
"What do you mean?"
Ville sighed again and removed his hoodie to reveal a long sleeve black thermal. He was burning up in Jussi's house and would be red around the cheeks soon.
"I mean I told you why I was waiting outside Tavastia. So how about you spill too and say why you were there."
Jussi frowned at the discarded hoodie. He liked Ville enough not to lie to him, but he didn't want him undressing in front of him. It made it harder to concentrate on their conversation especially since unwanted lust was known to creep up when he was around Ville. It had always been an issue with Jykri who suspected something he couldn't prove was going on between the two.
"Jykri and I had a fight. He...he- let's just say he overreacted to why I was late a few nights ago to a gig and practically called me a whore. I haven't spoken to him in like six days. So, I went to drown myself with drinks."
"Sorry to hear that mate."
"Kyllä."
Silence followed for a while before Jussi turned on the tv. The two continued this cycle of boyfriend bashing the whole time pretending none of it mattered. Nothing mattered because there was nothing the two of them could do to change their problems. Ville decided the game was getting old pretty soon and decided to start a new one.
"Hei Juse, what do you think Jykri and Bam-Bam would say if they found out we hooked up one night?
So that's part 2. Stick with me and I'll deliver smut, guilt, and regret for you soon!!