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It's 1:13 AM & I cannot sleep. Thoughts of future living possibilities & decorating ideas are flying through my head at lightening speed. I cannot stand living at home any longer. I am not happy here. I come home to find my sister in my bed, asleep. I turn on my laptop to her facebook logged in. Nothing in this house is mine - not even the bed I sleep in. I have no sanctuary any more. I can't turn to school because I don't belong there any more; I'm not suffering the pains of a midterm due in 48 hours; I have no need to stay up all night, slaving away risking injury. I have to leave. I cannot mask it any more. I cannot hide behind the thin veil of excuses; no one in this house needs me. They just want me. I feel trapped, more so than ever before and I need to take flight before my wings are clipped & I am forever left in this cage of unwant and greed.