A Need to Vent
I watch movies that give me high hopes. These nights alone put me back down. Eric and the girls just left from watching some Kevin Smith movies with me and a couple of the guys. From here on out it's just negative thoughts I need to get out of my head. These girls are leagues above me. I'll never find love again. I'm a failure in life. The highest I can hope to reach is a Team Lead at Target but even that won't happen because I'm not aggressive. I'll never find a girl that lives up to my standards and is willing to lower her own to go out with me. All my friends are going to take jobs out of state and out of reach. I'm going to be left alone and not by choice, but because such is my fate. I've joked that my children would bring forth the end times, so the powers that be have made sure to make reproduction impossible. No matter how much I change on the outside no girl/woman will want me for who I am. By the time I get enough money to go back to school I'll be too old to be hired with no experience. I fear that I have some sort of STD that I don't know about.
Now for a dose of whats really going on and why these negative things aren't true or shouldn't be worried about. I'm on the verge of getting a promotion. Schooling is affordable and easily taken care of through one of these internet programs. I could just become a Jewler. I'll have the experience to start and could easily pick up the skills necessary to further a career in Jewling. It's true I have hot friends and that neither of them are interested in me for dating purposes, but they also don't want me to end up alone/want me to win the shower bet so they're looking for me. I'm turning 21 soon and will be able to go to bars and to real clubs and shows and raves and what not. I'm a real catch. I have a strong work ethic and sense of duty. I'm really damn funny. I'm a little kid at heart but am a responsible adult as well. I have a tremendous amount of love ready to spill over on to someone, but no that I don't want to overwhelm anyone. I'm almost autonomous, I don't live with my parents, I have friends, most of who will probably get a job in the area even if they don't really want to. I'm not even half way done yet, and thus far I've experienced love, I know how to avoid failure, and people like me. I should be fine. I just need to wait this dry spot out.
This Entry was for me really but feel free to delv into the fears and hopes of Mike.
Now for a dose of whats really going on and why these negative things aren't true or shouldn't be worried about. I'm on the verge of getting a promotion. Schooling is affordable and easily taken care of through one of these internet programs. I could just become a Jewler. I'll have the experience to start and could easily pick up the skills necessary to further a career in Jewling. It's true I have hot friends and that neither of them are interested in me for dating purposes, but they also don't want me to end up alone/want me to win the shower bet so they're looking for me. I'm turning 21 soon and will be able to go to bars and to real clubs and shows and raves and what not. I'm a real catch. I have a strong work ethic and sense of duty. I'm really damn funny. I'm a little kid at heart but am a responsible adult as well. I have a tremendous amount of love ready to spill over on to someone, but no that I don't want to overwhelm anyone. I'm almost autonomous, I don't live with my parents, I have friends, most of who will probably get a job in the area even if they don't really want to. I'm not even half way done yet, and thus far I've experienced love, I know how to avoid failure, and people like me. I should be fine. I just need to wait this dry spot out.
This Entry was for me really but feel free to delv into the fears and hopes of Mike.