Happy!!!
I finished all my finals except Film and I think I did very well, which is very exciting and a weird feeling but im not going to complain. I gave in all my books but one that I shall return on monday and I brought home 2 more paintings (one isnt finished). I got a note from the Art Department stating that I will be given an art award on Wednsday and that I need to attend the awards ceremony and I have 3 paintings in the Semi-Annual art Exhibition. Yesterday I got my yearbook 10th period so from 6th through 10th I spent my time with Bona, Karen and Tina and we created the Jenny Moi dance. All in all I feel that this is the greatest ending to 4 years of high school. Prom is next Friday and I am 99% that Shai is my date, which is another big happiness in my end of LAG. I have no more papers to hand in, I have no more tests to study for (minus Film), I have no more books to give in (except econ text) and I have never felt happier! Obviously im also sad because im not sure how I can live without seeing Tina every morning to talk about Mr. Ireland, eating lunch with Karen, Jae, Simi and Ebony, and I have no idea how to live among straight folk!....Life without Mario will be very very difficult. Shavit isn't anything like Mario and even though he too is gay, its just not the same! I know that I will keep in touch with everyone I truely care about but it is very sad to say good-bye. Im happy im coming back from TY soon many times. I am happy that I will be missed and I am happy I will be able to use e-mail this summer. I am happy my art work improved over the last few years and I am happy that people are happy when they see it. I am a little scared for Year Course. The reason is that when I was in 8th grade, I chose to go to Laguardia because I wanted to pop the Jewish bubble. I wanted to learn about other religions, ethnicities, languages, traditions, people...everything I missed while I was in Schechter. I managed to do a great job keeping my Jewish identity while in "the real world" for High School and now I am inserting myself in that "Jewish bubble" once more for a whole year. This time that bubble is a country where the only other non Jews are either Arabs, Christians, and Thai. I know im not that scared, but I dont want to lose myself in what I feel like now. I like sharing my heretige with others and even though i'll be with Jews all year, I know i'll be fine. Its just something minor that I feel I should share with y'all. I am excited. Just plain excited for the future. Im excited, happy and energetic. You cant see it, but I have a really really really really big smile on my face right now and I dont want it to ever go away!!!