5 things about me
So epicflailer keeps TEMPTING ME TO TEH ARTHUR/COBB, mostly because with a very gentle twist on Arthur's personality it's easy to write him very much in love with Dom but keeping a tight lid on it. Easiest explanation ever for why he sticks with a guy whose subconscious SHOOTS HIM IN THE LEG. That being said!
I steal this from her:
1. Reply to this meme by asking me for five words and I will give you five words that remind me of you.
2.Then post them in your journal and explain what they mean to you.
3. Keep in mind that if I don't know you that well, your words might end up kind of odd or weird. If I do know you, your words will probably be weird.
She tagged me with:
castiel. time management. mal. cosplay! your country.
Castiel
An angel in a trenchcoat that's too large, a cheap suit, a hangdog expression, and the most terrifying sneaky streak ever.
Seriously, I could go on and on about why I think Castiel is the most awesomest shit ever: here I go into a lot of detail so I'll just c/p:
Little known fact: I've actually been watching SPN since 2006, right after the first season ended, but I dropped off on watching it because Season 3 bored me watching it week to week. To this day I still haven't seen half of S3. I picked the series back up in November of last year because I was sick with H1N1 and bored to death hanging around my room and I kept seeing funny pictures of this new angel character they'd introduced in S4, so I got curious.
Castiel stole my heart.
He's ancient and accordingly full of information, and he likes to learn more. Stubborn enough to stand up to Dean and present him with a wall to butt heads with. Smart enough to keep himself alive after he's cut off from Heaven and in his own words, 'hunted'. Sneaky to the point of terrifying and a genius at manipulation, which makes an interesting counterpoint to his straightforward way of talking and difficulty with outright lies. He's curious enough to try new things, from alcohol to swearing to pop culture references. He's confused about a lot of these things. He's exasperated and annoyed by stupid questions and anything he sees as time-wasting, including long-winded explanations about things he already understands while the humans are hanging to the back of the class. He's a badass with a sword who can kick 90% of mook butt. He's loyal almost to a fault and throws the whole of his being into any task set before him, even unto death.
And he's angry when God fails him, and he's angry when Dean fails him. He is flawed and struggles with free will, unable to both accept the responsibility and the freedom of it. He is unwilling to consider Plan B, or any plan that isn't his. He's inclined towards addiction and he's liable to become depressed when he fails.
Castiel is such a complicated character even on his face that it's hard to not be intrigued by him at least. But in the end, his story is a deeply compelling one, as [info]22by7* observed to me the other day. Essentially Castiel's character arc is a 'coming of age' story: the discovery of self on the cusp of adulthood, as a person or character is driven out from their sheltered life with their parents' authority ruling over their own. It is a story about self-discovery, self-understanding, and having new eyes for the world around him. It's about learning to interact with the world and forming his own opinions and taking responsibility for his own actions.
Long story short, I think Cas is fascinating. Also makes me want to take him out for cookies sometime.
Time Management
I have NO IDEA why anyone would associate me with this because I don't manage my time in the least. I'm the biggest procrastinator ever. If there was ever hope of me finishing even one of the fics for various exchanges I lost it because of procrastination (and, y'know, crashing my car AS HARD AS I COULD into someone else's car, GO ME).
My 'time management' is me going to work, then dedicating all my free time to fandom - Team Delicious over at inception_kinkmeme and writing fills and reading other people's fic and otherwise being SPECTACULARLY RIDICULOUS. Also a lot of talking to friends on the phone. Mostly they generously listen to me ramble about fandom, urgh.
Mal
a;sdlja;sdj I really really need to write a fic about Mal when she's, oh, ALIVE, but TODAY IS NOT THAT DAY (today I go to work, haha). So I'm going to talk about shade!Mal.
niftywithan prompted on the kinkmeme for Five Times Mal's Shade Wanted Arthur Out of the Picture, which was disturbingly fun to write and was my second Arthur/Cobb/Mal fill on the meme. This is what I explained to her is my take on shade!Mal:
Mal is really a delight to write. Sorry for the tl;dr but I write Mal as a conglomeration of guilt complex for Cobb, because I think Cobb's guilt is motivated by more than one thing:
1) Guilt for Mal's death, and
1a) Guilt for Mal's inception;
2) Guilt for not dying with her/not trusting her enough to die with her;
3) Guilt for illegal extraction (since my personal canon is that Arthur is the one that got him started on illegal extraction, Cobb subconsciously blames Arthur for this);
4) Doubt that the world he occupies is real;
5) Anger at the whole of his situation, causing him to subconsciously lash out, and
6) Simply missing his wife (thus recreating her to the best of his ability).
That's a lot of complicated emotion and all of it is legitimate and suppressed, which is what makes the Mal-in-my-head so creepy and strange and terrible.
I've always been really intrigued by her decision to shoot Arthur in the film. Is it because she knows that Cobb values Arthur as the only real person in the room other than the subject (Saito), who is not a legitimate target? Or is it more complicated than that? Given that Mal is a complicated character, I think any decision to turn on Arthur must be subtly motivated and I attribute it primarily to (1)an attempt on Cobb's part to isolate himself further from the 'real' world because he doubts its reality, and (2)punishing Arthur for aiding him in a job he feels guilty for and for staying by him when Cobb feels that he's lower than dirt.
in a related note helenvalentine requested the missing scene where Saito and Mal capture Arthur and I had to fill it for all the above reasons. Er.
Cosplay
Cosplay is kind of a way of life if you do it for long enough. Even though I don't have the time, money, or inclination to make 4-5 costumes per convention I attend, I still will spend a good chunk of my time while consuming any media trying to figure out how I'd make X costume. When I catch myself doing it I have to laugh, but it certainly doesn't stop me. :)
I could get into the long and complicated history of my cosplaying: rukawagf got me started in earnest back in 2002 and by 2003 I'd made a costume and never once considered looking back. I've probably done at least 45 separate characters at this point (there's a list somewhere), and made/put together in excess of 60 costumes including variations on said characters. I still have a lot of cosplays I want to make: Sonic the Hedgehog (mascot version),
Himura Kenshin, Bumblebee (gijinka version/hot blonde chick), Arthur/JGL (LOLOLOL), Roxas or Axel in their Organization uniforms, Yousuke from Persona 4, Ciel Phantomhive (cover of volume 6 SHUT UP I KNOW EVERYONE IS DOING IT), Esther from Trinity Blood (artbook version), Maka (2nd ED of Soul Eater), Kida and Shizuo from Durarara, etc etc - this is off the top of my head. Will I realistically get to any of this? Probably not. But it's great to keep my options open. :)
It's a great hobby, although it rapidly gets expensive; the average costume is roughly 150 dollars between material, wigs, notions, props, and shoes. It's also time-consuming. However, I can't say I regret a single second of the time I've spent on costuming. I've learned a lot not only about sewing but also about myself; I've had the opportunity to perform on stage, which is something I would never have gotten to do without cosplay; I've met most of my friends through this extension of my anime/manga habit. So, yeah, I may have taken a long, long break, but BOOM BABY COSPLAY IS FUN. =DDD
AMERICA FUCK YEAH
You could say that I'm a patriotic person.
I'm not going to ramble about why I think America is awesome, because given my politics That Way Lies Wank, but suffice to say that I adore where I live, despite every flaw and pimple. America is a beautiful place; it is a land of second chances; it is a country that is enthusiastic and ridiculous and smothering in its attempts to be kind. America is a country that is ever-learning, ever-entertaining, ever-earnest, and all in all I firmly believe it is one of the best places in the world to live.
Its Founding Fathers had the sensibility to create a government for the people and by the people and designed it to grow and change with its people. The Constitution ever inspires me; I recently had the chance to see it in person again, and it almost made me cry. All those brilliant men and their grand experiment, sharply aware of their rare, once-in-a-millennium chance to create their own unique government, and they did a brilliant job.
In other news I have written missing scene fic for the kinkmeme and once again poor Arthur is on the wrong end of Mal's attentions. My life, people, my life.
thank you for the thoughtful replies on my super boring meta yesterday! I'll respond to those either later tonight or tomorrow morning. MUST TRAIPSE OFF TO WORK NOW lalala!
I steal this from her:
1. Reply to this meme by asking me for five words and I will give you five words that remind me of you.
2.Then post them in your journal and explain what they mean to you.
3. Keep in mind that if I don't know you that well, your words might end up kind of odd or weird. If I do know you, your words will probably be weird.
She tagged me with:
castiel. time management. mal. cosplay! your country.
Castiel
An angel in a trenchcoat that's too large, a cheap suit, a hangdog expression, and the most terrifying sneaky streak ever.
Seriously, I could go on and on about why I think Castiel is the most awesomest shit ever: here I go into a lot of detail so I'll just c/p:
Little known fact: I've actually been watching SPN since 2006, right after the first season ended, but I dropped off on watching it because Season 3 bored me watching it week to week. To this day I still haven't seen half of S3. I picked the series back up in November of last year because I was sick with H1N1 and bored to death hanging around my room and I kept seeing funny pictures of this new angel character they'd introduced in S4, so I got curious.
Castiel stole my heart.
He's ancient and accordingly full of information, and he likes to learn more. Stubborn enough to stand up to Dean and present him with a wall to butt heads with. Smart enough to keep himself alive after he's cut off from Heaven and in his own words, 'hunted'. Sneaky to the point of terrifying and a genius at manipulation, which makes an interesting counterpoint to his straightforward way of talking and difficulty with outright lies. He's curious enough to try new things, from alcohol to swearing to pop culture references. He's confused about a lot of these things. He's exasperated and annoyed by stupid questions and anything he sees as time-wasting, including long-winded explanations about things he already understands while the humans are hanging to the back of the class. He's a badass with a sword who can kick 90% of mook butt. He's loyal almost to a fault and throws the whole of his being into any task set before him, even unto death.
And he's angry when God fails him, and he's angry when Dean fails him. He is flawed and struggles with free will, unable to both accept the responsibility and the freedom of it. He is unwilling to consider Plan B, or any plan that isn't his. He's inclined towards addiction and he's liable to become depressed when he fails.
Castiel is such a complicated character even on his face that it's hard to not be intrigued by him at least. But in the end, his story is a deeply compelling one, as [info]22by7* observed to me the other day. Essentially Castiel's character arc is a 'coming of age' story: the discovery of self on the cusp of adulthood, as a person or character is driven out from their sheltered life with their parents' authority ruling over their own. It is a story about self-discovery, self-understanding, and having new eyes for the world around him. It's about learning to interact with the world and forming his own opinions and taking responsibility for his own actions.
Long story short, I think Cas is fascinating. Also makes me want to take him out for cookies sometime.
Time Management
I have NO IDEA why anyone would associate me with this because I don't manage my time in the least. I'm the biggest procrastinator ever. If there was ever hope of me finishing even one of the fics for various exchanges I lost it because of procrastination (and, y'know, crashing my car AS HARD AS I COULD into someone else's car, GO ME).
My 'time management' is me going to work, then dedicating all my free time to fandom - Team Delicious over at inception_kinkmeme and writing fills and reading other people's fic and otherwise being SPECTACULARLY RIDICULOUS. Also a lot of talking to friends on the phone. Mostly they generously listen to me ramble about fandom, urgh.
Mal
a;sdlja;sdj I really really need to write a fic about Mal when she's, oh, ALIVE, but TODAY IS NOT THAT DAY (today I go to work, haha). So I'm going to talk about shade!Mal.
niftywithan prompted on the kinkmeme for Five Times Mal's Shade Wanted Arthur Out of the Picture, which was disturbingly fun to write and was my second Arthur/Cobb/Mal fill on the meme. This is what I explained to her is my take on shade!Mal:
Mal is really a delight to write. Sorry for the tl;dr but I write Mal as a conglomeration of guilt complex for Cobb, because I think Cobb's guilt is motivated by more than one thing:
1) Guilt for Mal's death, and
1a) Guilt for Mal's inception;
2) Guilt for not dying with her/not trusting her enough to die with her;
3) Guilt for illegal extraction (since my personal canon is that Arthur is the one that got him started on illegal extraction, Cobb subconsciously blames Arthur for this);
4) Doubt that the world he occupies is real;
5) Anger at the whole of his situation, causing him to subconsciously lash out, and
6) Simply missing his wife (thus recreating her to the best of his ability).
That's a lot of complicated emotion and all of it is legitimate and suppressed, which is what makes the Mal-in-my-head so creepy and strange and terrible.
I've always been really intrigued by her decision to shoot Arthur in the film. Is it because she knows that Cobb values Arthur as the only real person in the room other than the subject (Saito), who is not a legitimate target? Or is it more complicated than that? Given that Mal is a complicated character, I think any decision to turn on Arthur must be subtly motivated and I attribute it primarily to (1)an attempt on Cobb's part to isolate himself further from the 'real' world because he doubts its reality, and (2)punishing Arthur for aiding him in a job he feels guilty for and for staying by him when Cobb feels that he's lower than dirt.
in a related note helenvalentine requested the missing scene where Saito and Mal capture Arthur and I had to fill it for all the above reasons. Er.
Cosplay
Cosplay is kind of a way of life if you do it for long enough. Even though I don't have the time, money, or inclination to make 4-5 costumes per convention I attend, I still will spend a good chunk of my time while consuming any media trying to figure out how I'd make X costume. When I catch myself doing it I have to laugh, but it certainly doesn't stop me. :)
I could get into the long and complicated history of my cosplaying: rukawagf got me started in earnest back in 2002 and by 2003 I'd made a costume and never once considered looking back. I've probably done at least 45 separate characters at this point (there's a list somewhere), and made/put together in excess of 60 costumes including variations on said characters. I still have a lot of cosplays I want to make: Sonic the Hedgehog (mascot version),
Himura Kenshin, Bumblebee (gijinka version/hot blonde chick), Arthur/JGL (LOLOLOL), Roxas or Axel in their Organization uniforms, Yousuke from Persona 4, Ciel Phantomhive (cover of volume 6 SHUT UP I KNOW EVERYONE IS DOING IT), Esther from Trinity Blood (artbook version), Maka (2nd ED of Soul Eater), Kida and Shizuo from Durarara, etc etc - this is off the top of my head. Will I realistically get to any of this? Probably not. But it's great to keep my options open. :)
It's a great hobby, although it rapidly gets expensive; the average costume is roughly 150 dollars between material, wigs, notions, props, and shoes. It's also time-consuming. However, I can't say I regret a single second of the time I've spent on costuming. I've learned a lot not only about sewing but also about myself; I've had the opportunity to perform on stage, which is something I would never have gotten to do without cosplay; I've met most of my friends through this extension of my anime/manga habit. So, yeah, I may have taken a long, long break, but BOOM BABY COSPLAY IS FUN. =DDD
AMERICA FUCK YEAH
You could say that I'm a patriotic person.
I'm not going to ramble about why I think America is awesome, because given my politics That Way Lies Wank, but suffice to say that I adore where I live, despite every flaw and pimple. America is a beautiful place; it is a land of second chances; it is a country that is enthusiastic and ridiculous and smothering in its attempts to be kind. America is a country that is ever-learning, ever-entertaining, ever-earnest, and all in all I firmly believe it is one of the best places in the world to live.
Its Founding Fathers had the sensibility to create a government for the people and by the people and designed it to grow and change with its people. The Constitution ever inspires me; I recently had the chance to see it in person again, and it almost made me cry. All those brilliant men and their grand experiment, sharply aware of their rare, once-in-a-millennium chance to create their own unique government, and they did a brilliant job.
In other news I have written missing scene fic for the kinkmeme and once again poor Arthur is on the wrong end of Mal's attentions. My life, people, my life.
thank you for the thoughtful replies on my super boring meta yesterday! I'll respond to those either later tonight or tomorrow morning. MUST TRAIPSE OFF TO WORK NOW lalala!