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Notes from the first day of the quarter...
The Roman history class is not as intimidating as I thought it would be, despite the fact that everyone in that class seems to be a senior. I feel comfortable in that class.
Is confidence simply a function of iteration? If it is, then the inevitable question to ask is what do you do prior to the iteration 0? How do you get into the loop? The easiest thing I can think of is that someone else initiates the iteration for you. I can imagine a world where everyone initiates others, the first time is always given by someone else, and then you are able to do it for others. Of course, this isnt junior high school any more, so I guess those who have yet to jump in must act irrationally at least once and hope for a positive outcome?
Wouldnt that be an interesting thing to study? The study of talking to, and interaction with, girls. Haha, now thats a social science.
I know Im jumping to the island of conclusions, but everyone in my econ section seems like they dont want to be in the class. I think it'll be fun, especially when my prof whips out the fiddle.
The Rome class (my Italian studies / art history / history class... and VLPA! Which is why im taking it) seems cool, but the lecturer is... nice, but not interesting to listen to (monotone, pauses, that kinda thing) And its going to be annoying to name that class all quarter, like when someone askes me what classes Im taking.
I am so Romantic... Haha, because Im taking 10 credits on Rome. That makes me more Romantic than everyone except than some of the Classics students. And possibly rather useless to society.
I dont think confidence is just a function of iteration, though I still believe it is probably the most important part. If you think that people can believe whatever they want, regardless of reality, or history, etc, then it cant be a just a function of iteration. But if you believe that people are more or less tied to thier experiences and that kinda thing, then I do think that iteration is a pretty central component of confidence.
Ok, well, this is something I am beginning to become aware of, and its worrying me. Everyone is in a relationship... so, I walk up to someone new (or sit by them or whatever) and things are going well (meaning I am actually talking and they seem interested in talking and im not screwing up, and she is attractive). Then I, one way or another, find out that they are in a relaitonship. Facebook helps there. What do I do? Keep trying? But I dont want to. I am not in school to be someone who is very social, I want to study, learn, and get good grades so I can go on. It would be so nice to be in a relationship... hell, it wouldnt even have to be serious at all, though that could be nice (I wouldnt know though) So I would never have to feel lonely, be able to share experiences, and... well... you all should know why. I mean, its just what it is. Grr... stupid relationships, and people being in them so you're effectively rejected without even really doing anything... because nobody likes to be smacked in the face, right? So now I need to figure out how to go about operating in a world where I must assume that everyone is in a relationship unless they say otherwise (which would probably be a good sign right there) The best possible thing to do is to party hard and often, but I really cant do that, you know? The next best possible thing to do is to just try, and not really worry about the smack-in-the-face-factor, because not everyone is in a relationship (though Id be willing to bet most cool people are.
See heres what scares me... kinda... 5 years from now, its going to even be worse... people will begin to marry, more still will be in serious relationships, and those who arent in relationships are going to be more and more desperate. And I would guess at least in a theoretical world less desirable.
I dont know what to do. This cant harm my grades, but this current condition harms me each passing day, just a little... grr... I pretty much need to change into someone a lot more outgoing and hit the dating market... Be with as many girls as I can to make sure I find the right one, while satisfying my more current needs. The last thing I can afford is to grow desperate... because that just sucks, and the reality of that situation would always be different from the surface thing. I am not now, but I could see how 5 or so years down the line things might be different. And then I would just be humiliating myself the whole time.
It really is a crazy world.
The Roman history class is not as intimidating as I thought it would be, despite the fact that everyone in that class seems to be a senior. I feel comfortable in that class.
Is confidence simply a function of iteration? If it is, then the inevitable question to ask is what do you do prior to the iteration 0? How do you get into the loop? The easiest thing I can think of is that someone else initiates the iteration for you. I can imagine a world where everyone initiates others, the first time is always given by someone else, and then you are able to do it for others. Of course, this isnt junior high school any more, so I guess those who have yet to jump in must act irrationally at least once and hope for a positive outcome?
Wouldnt that be an interesting thing to study? The study of talking to, and interaction with, girls. Haha, now thats a social science.
I know Im jumping to the island of conclusions, but everyone in my econ section seems like they dont want to be in the class. I think it'll be fun, especially when my prof whips out the fiddle.
The Rome class (my Italian studies / art history / history class... and VLPA! Which is why im taking it) seems cool, but the lecturer is... nice, but not interesting to listen to (monotone, pauses, that kinda thing) And its going to be annoying to name that class all quarter, like when someone askes me what classes Im taking.
I am so Romantic... Haha, because Im taking 10 credits on Rome. That makes me more Romantic than everyone except than some of the Classics students. And possibly rather useless to society.
I dont think confidence is just a function of iteration, though I still believe it is probably the most important part. If you think that people can believe whatever they want, regardless of reality, or history, etc, then it cant be a just a function of iteration. But if you believe that people are more or less tied to thier experiences and that kinda thing, then I do think that iteration is a pretty central component of confidence.
Ok, well, this is something I am beginning to become aware of, and its worrying me. Everyone is in a relationship... so, I walk up to someone new (or sit by them or whatever) and things are going well (meaning I am actually talking and they seem interested in talking and im not screwing up, and she is attractive). Then I, one way or another, find out that they are in a relaitonship. Facebook helps there. What do I do? Keep trying? But I dont want to. I am not in school to be someone who is very social, I want to study, learn, and get good grades so I can go on. It would be so nice to be in a relationship... hell, it wouldnt even have to be serious at all, though that could be nice (I wouldnt know though) So I would never have to feel lonely, be able to share experiences, and... well... you all should know why. I mean, its just what it is. Grr... stupid relationships, and people being in them so you're effectively rejected without even really doing anything... because nobody likes to be smacked in the face, right? So now I need to figure out how to go about operating in a world where I must assume that everyone is in a relationship unless they say otherwise (which would probably be a good sign right there) The best possible thing to do is to party hard and often, but I really cant do that, you know? The next best possible thing to do is to just try, and not really worry about the smack-in-the-face-factor, because not everyone is in a relationship (though Id be willing to bet most cool people are.
See heres what scares me... kinda... 5 years from now, its going to even be worse... people will begin to marry, more still will be in serious relationships, and those who arent in relationships are going to be more and more desperate. And I would guess at least in a theoretical world less desirable.
I dont know what to do. This cant harm my grades, but this current condition harms me each passing day, just a little... grr... I pretty much need to change into someone a lot more outgoing and hit the dating market... Be with as many girls as I can to make sure I find the right one, while satisfying my more current needs. The last thing I can afford is to grow desperate... because that just sucks, and the reality of that situation would always be different from the surface thing. I am not now, but I could see how 5 or so years down the line things might be different. And then I would just be humiliating myself the whole time.
It really is a crazy world.