Tired
I was having some problems sleeping, a few weeks ago, wake up in the the middle of the night and then not be able to sleep for at least an hour or more, but it seemed to have gone away, until last night. I woke up around 3ish and couldn't sleep and had so many thoughts going through my head that it was impossible to sleep, read some which usually helps and then tried to sleep again. And then at 3:45 or 4ish Luke woke up, talking, playing with his toys in his crib, one of them is a musical thing that hangs on the side of the crib and he turns the thing on it and it plays one of 20 songs. They are usually about 30 seconds long, but he kept turning it and turning it and talking. Since he wasn't crying I was not going to go to him to encourage this sort of thing. Nighttime is for sleeping, not playing in your crib. He was up making noise until almost 5. That's 2 hours of no sleep for me, and I would have been lucky to get 8 to begin with. I'm tired now. I have to clean the house tonight after I get home from work. The lady that "wants to take Luke away from us, because we're bad bad people" (I know its not true, but that's how we feel about it) is coming to visit tomorrow at 10 am. I feel obligated to make it look like we have a nice safe home for Luke to grow in (no uncovered outlets, cabinets locked, nothing that can fit into his mouth on the floor, etc.). AND I have to watch Lost, and the second half of the Amazing Race from last night. I just don't have time for this lady. I'm worried about what she's going to do or say or look at. I cleaned our bedroom this weekend because I didn't want her to see it a mess. I'm just stressed with the thought of this lady coming into our house to judge us. Luke is my priority in my life and I wouldn't do anything to hurt him, so its just hard to take this. We'll see how it goes tomorrow, I'll try to post afterwards if I get a chance.