Sep 12, 2005 12:13
at some point, everybody stops learning things, i think.
they just say they learned something and keep on with the same old stuff.
someone gets shit on by someone, goes back and gets shit on some more, and they freak out and wonder, why?...
if the information processing model of the brain holds any truth, then the processing is not based on much straightforward logic but rather a massive amount of uncertainty.
at some point, everybody begs to wallow in pain, whether they realize it or not.
can you really appreciate sunny day #2,486 in a row without feeling a tornado? all of the leaves die in the fall. spring is a short ways away.
i think it is human nature to hurt each other.
this does not always manifest itself intentionally. usually it is through lack of forethought and abundance of apathy and laziness.
i'm glad katrina blew away new orleans. no, really. think of all the empty space there will be; it is like a blank canvas. the potential is beautiful.
here's your homework: if anybody ever cheated on you, tell them you made a mistake and you want to get to know them again. if you are stressed about bills, go spend all of the money you can on things you don't need. tell someone you hate that you love them, and tell someone you love that you never want to see them again. this has to be done soberly and with clear intention.
i do not understand girls, and i never will. i do not understand myself, and i never will. why try? everything i know is clouded by my perceptions. i cannot know the truth for this reason.
i have an exam, a quiz and two papers due tomorrow. i am trying to set up a business for myself and andy. we will have our own llc by the end of the year. i have to go to work from 3-10. i have a study group meeting after that. i am finding less and less space for emotions these days. all they seem to do is get in the way of progress. i wish i was good at something i wanted to do for the rest of my life.