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Hey everyone! *gives you all a huge hug* Its been forever since i last updated. But thats because my pc has been wacked out, and wouldnt let me open web pages- so ive been going crazy. But somehow i restarted my pc a few minutes ago, and i came back on and now it working! So, im not complaining.
Anyways... alot has been going on with me.
Tomorrow i go for more check- up testing to see if my health problem has gotten any better, or not.
And then i have exams all next week and then winter break- and im so happy about that. Because not only do i need a break, but i need a change. I want a whole new looks and new... everything. So i'm looking forward to that.
Lots of boy trouble. Im starting to meet alot more guys at my school, so im happy about that. But now, im done with Disney Boy, James, and Jason. I dont talk to any of them anyways, so whats the point in holding on to them because all it does is hurt me... So im walking away from that. And now ive got Devan. <3 He loves me and i love him, but we cant be together just yet (long story.) But i seem to have to wait for everything else, so hell, what will waiting for one more thing hurt? And besides, nothings promised... i may move on from him too, so...
I finally got my contacts. I'm so happy, because now i can see very clearly in the distance. The first night i got them, i looked up and saw an air plane (i live near an airport so their always flying in and out), and i could see like.. every detail in it. It was awesome. And then the first time i looked at the moon.. ahh, it was awesome!
And then theres my drama class. My friend and i went again today, and everyone loved it. It was great. I was so nervous before hand, and all the guys in the front row were trying to calm me down. It gave me a sense of relaxation and security. It was nice. And then we went, and we were the only group who didnt get crtiqued for ANYTHING. It was awesome. And the groups that went before us werent really that good, and my friend was just like, "You're not like all those other actors; your actually good." So that was a really good compliment. It was nice to hear her say that. Everyone was real proud that i just got up and did that. I was proud of myself too.
[On another note...]
It kinda hurts me, that when i try to get over someone that i really really love, everyones gotta tell me "You've still got a huge chance."
Its nice that ya'll think that, but... what are the chances of that "chance" ever actually occurring? Slim to none... but then again, anythings possible.... but thats not my point. lol.
My point is, whenever im trying to be practical and realistic about something, someone else has gotta come along and say "No, you could really have this."
Its ... depressing sometimes... i think about it alot...
Oh well.
Glad to be back.
Love you all *hug*
Anyways... alot has been going on with me.
Tomorrow i go for more check- up testing to see if my health problem has gotten any better, or not.
And then i have exams all next week and then winter break- and im so happy about that. Because not only do i need a break, but i need a change. I want a whole new looks and new... everything. So i'm looking forward to that.
Lots of boy trouble. Im starting to meet alot more guys at my school, so im happy about that. But now, im done with Disney Boy, James, and Jason. I dont talk to any of them anyways, so whats the point in holding on to them because all it does is hurt me... So im walking away from that. And now ive got Devan. <3 He loves me and i love him, but we cant be together just yet (long story.) But i seem to have to wait for everything else, so hell, what will waiting for one more thing hurt? And besides, nothings promised... i may move on from him too, so...
I finally got my contacts. I'm so happy, because now i can see very clearly in the distance. The first night i got them, i looked up and saw an air plane (i live near an airport so their always flying in and out), and i could see like.. every detail in it. It was awesome. And then the first time i looked at the moon.. ahh, it was awesome!
And then theres my drama class. My friend and i went again today, and everyone loved it. It was great. I was so nervous before hand, and all the guys in the front row were trying to calm me down. It gave me a sense of relaxation and security. It was nice. And then we went, and we were the only group who didnt get crtiqued for ANYTHING. It was awesome. And the groups that went before us werent really that good, and my friend was just like, "You're not like all those other actors; your actually good." So that was a really good compliment. It was nice to hear her say that. Everyone was real proud that i just got up and did that. I was proud of myself too.
[On another note...]
It kinda hurts me, that when i try to get over someone that i really really love, everyones gotta tell me "You've still got a huge chance."
Its nice that ya'll think that, but... what are the chances of that "chance" ever actually occurring? Slim to none... but then again, anythings possible.... but thats not my point. lol.
My point is, whenever im trying to be practical and realistic about something, someone else has gotta come along and say "No, you could really have this."
Its ... depressing sometimes... i think about it alot...
Oh well.
Glad to be back.
Love you all *hug*