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Somewhere along my thinking, i ended up back here. And now im writing you this entry.
Sometimes i dont know what to think. And then, when i finally think that i do know, something else comes along and brings back all my doubts. Sometimes, when you look at something, or hear a name, you feel a connection that you cant explain with that person or object. And then you spend so much time trying to justify it, and then you come to realize, it wasnt fully worth spending your time on in the first place because it wasnt real. But just as soon as you realize that, something comes along and shows you that whatever it is you doubted, is very real. And then your back to where you started. So then you come to your senses and realize that your just taking yourself around in constant circles. And your foot prints are so deep in that road because youve traveled it so many times, that theres no turning back. Because everyone will know where youve been. So in spite to save yourself, you just keep walking around that same circle, down that same road.... hoping that someday you'll find not that that connection you felt was never really there, or not that it is real.... but youll find the truth. And by the time you find out the truth, you realize that you knew the truth before you ever found it out because you saw the signs all along, you just passed them by hoping for something more.
I know where i would like to go.... but i dont think i know how to get there. And i dont know how to know for sure, if that connection i have is real or not. So maybe by the time i do find out, ill realize, that i knew the truth all along. And that would be the saddest part of it all. Because i would have known ahead of time, that when i did find out the truth, i would have knew it all along.
And what is that my friends? Expirience. Expirience can sometimes take you around that same path a million times, but only if you let it.
Dont let it happen to you, unless you know its worth it.
Sometimes i dont know what to think. And then, when i finally think that i do know, something else comes along and brings back all my doubts. Sometimes, when you look at something, or hear a name, you feel a connection that you cant explain with that person or object. And then you spend so much time trying to justify it, and then you come to realize, it wasnt fully worth spending your time on in the first place because it wasnt real. But just as soon as you realize that, something comes along and shows you that whatever it is you doubted, is very real. And then your back to where you started. So then you come to your senses and realize that your just taking yourself around in constant circles. And your foot prints are so deep in that road because youve traveled it so many times, that theres no turning back. Because everyone will know where youve been. So in spite to save yourself, you just keep walking around that same circle, down that same road.... hoping that someday you'll find not that that connection you felt was never really there, or not that it is real.... but youll find the truth. And by the time you find out the truth, you realize that you knew the truth before you ever found it out because you saw the signs all along, you just passed them by hoping for something more.
I know where i would like to go.... but i dont think i know how to get there. And i dont know how to know for sure, if that connection i have is real or not. So maybe by the time i do find out, ill realize, that i knew the truth all along. And that would be the saddest part of it all. Because i would have known ahead of time, that when i did find out the truth, i would have knew it all along.
And what is that my friends? Expirience. Expirience can sometimes take you around that same path a million times, but only if you let it.
Dont let it happen to you, unless you know its worth it.