new years in Winter Camp
New years again. I sat here and counted down on the computer, in a chatroom, as the ball in NYC fell at midnite. How exciting. Yeah, I know what you are saying, but if nobody wanted to go out, (and I did ask believe it or not!), I sure as hell am not going to some bar or club by myself (its nYe, and the cops are thicker than fleas,...what ARE you thinking!?) and besides, nobody invited me anywhere. Am I depressed? no. Am I really down and sad as you probably expect? oddly enough, no. It was just another chapter in the book of life closing, and a new one opening. Gods help me, it has to be less stressful than 2004.
I sent my ex wife a small "care package" Wednesday. She is getting her autoCAD v. 14, some games on CDs, and 2 large Jiff peanut butter containers. It seems, that the stuff the Euros pass as PNB is dry, and all but spreadable. So, being that "nice guy" that I am, I sent her 2 containers.
I got the Art of the Lord of the Rings, being a book on conceptual art, sketches, drawings, renderings, and paintings used to create the scenes and ideas for all three LOTR movies. Its a very cherished gift, as my xmas consisted of that, and a xmas card from a dear lady friend in Alabama. I got myself a small fiber optic xmas tree on xmas eve and it will be a nite light I think now. Just did NOT have much xmas cheer at all, and I usually like xmas. Not this year.
I was invited to theDreamWeaver's for xmas day dinner (thank you dear!! =) but my car's radiator is STILL leaking and I had to decline, even tho I have a painting my ex left me that I promised her a couple of months ago. I did get kinda down on xmas eve, and a friend offered me a "mercy invitation" to come visit but I didnt accept it as I didnt get it until way late xmas day and I was about to crash for the nite when I got it. I had to go to work, as I do tomorrow as well, at 5am, to clean part of the fresh vegetable rack.
Did I have a "fun holiday season"? no. I worked HARD at the store. We made $36,000 in the week of xmas..that is a LOT of work. The store made well over $500,000 for the week as well. THAT is a lot of work. Flipping xmas was just another day off for me as far as I was concerned. Just like last nite and today.
I have to admit I was VERY disappointed in the slim coverage of the Rose Bowl Parade today. It used to be like 2 hrs or more..today it just seemed like about an hour and then they went to pro-golf. yuck. The only parade I get to watch all year and they butchered it. Oh well.
I look back at 2004 and there were some good times, but a lot more bad unfortunately. I had finacial problems up to March, my wife wanted a divorce, we lost our home because there wasnt enough cash flow to keep the monthly payments up, my dad died in Jan., and my car had major electrical problems for a while which caused a lot of headaches at the wrong time. It took over 2 weeks to finally get into the house I am in now, and I lost some family heirlooms because somebody's damn brother found excuses not come help me get my stuff into storage. The damned sorry assed "wiccan community" here didnt raise a finger to help either, neither for me or for Mariah when she was moving her stuff out. Hypocrites all!!! And, I am very single and its really no fun.
But I do have a steady job, the car runs (still needs a new radiator), I have food if I think to buy it, I am warm, I got to do some reenactments late in the fall, and I have a computer. Some how, though, that doesnt balance the year. So 04 was a year I wont remember fondly, I fear.
Well, its a new chapter in the book. Perhaps it will be more exciting and more cheerier than the last one. We will see, wont we?
Long isnt it?
I sent my ex wife a small "care package" Wednesday. She is getting her autoCAD v. 14, some games on CDs, and 2 large Jiff peanut butter containers. It seems, that the stuff the Euros pass as PNB is dry, and all but spreadable. So, being that "nice guy" that I am, I sent her 2 containers.
I got the Art of the Lord of the Rings, being a book on conceptual art, sketches, drawings, renderings, and paintings used to create the scenes and ideas for all three LOTR movies. Its a very cherished gift, as my xmas consisted of that, and a xmas card from a dear lady friend in Alabama. I got myself a small fiber optic xmas tree on xmas eve and it will be a nite light I think now. Just did NOT have much xmas cheer at all, and I usually like xmas. Not this year.
I was invited to theDreamWeaver's for xmas day dinner (thank you dear!! =) but my car's radiator is STILL leaking and I had to decline, even tho I have a painting my ex left me that I promised her a couple of months ago. I did get kinda down on xmas eve, and a friend offered me a "mercy invitation" to come visit but I didnt accept it as I didnt get it until way late xmas day and I was about to crash for the nite when I got it. I had to go to work, as I do tomorrow as well, at 5am, to clean part of the fresh vegetable rack.
Did I have a "fun holiday season"? no. I worked HARD at the store. We made $36,000 in the week of xmas..that is a LOT of work. The store made well over $500,000 for the week as well. THAT is a lot of work. Flipping xmas was just another day off for me as far as I was concerned. Just like last nite and today.
I have to admit I was VERY disappointed in the slim coverage of the Rose Bowl Parade today. It used to be like 2 hrs or more..today it just seemed like about an hour and then they went to pro-golf. yuck. The only parade I get to watch all year and they butchered it. Oh well.
I look back at 2004 and there were some good times, but a lot more bad unfortunately. I had finacial problems up to March, my wife wanted a divorce, we lost our home because there wasnt enough cash flow to keep the monthly payments up, my dad died in Jan., and my car had major electrical problems for a while which caused a lot of headaches at the wrong time. It took over 2 weeks to finally get into the house I am in now, and I lost some family heirlooms because somebody's damn brother found excuses not come help me get my stuff into storage. The damned sorry assed "wiccan community" here didnt raise a finger to help either, neither for me or for Mariah when she was moving her stuff out. Hypocrites all!!! And, I am very single and its really no fun.
But I do have a steady job, the car runs (still needs a new radiator), I have food if I think to buy it, I am warm, I got to do some reenactments late in the fall, and I have a computer. Some how, though, that doesnt balance the year. So 04 was a year I wont remember fondly, I fear.
Well, its a new chapter in the book. Perhaps it will be more exciting and more cheerier than the last one. We will see, wont we?
Long isnt it?