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lately i have been leaving the lights off in my room, except for a big candle that makes everything smell lightly of cedar and oranges. I turn on moody piano sonatas and i think about how i ended up where i am. i never thought i would get this old, which is funny because in the larger scheme of things i am just a little baby.
I get really frustrated and depressed when i think about the future sometimes...but lately i have been filled with a slight sense of optimism. i know that hard things are ahead of me, i know that life will not be easy. but i have started to realize that i am capable of making it, i will be able to go through life in one piece. i can do it. there are going to be awful times and it will be dark and cold and lonely...but that wont change the fact that there are also beaches and sunflowers and good people. i forget that there are good people sometimes; i forget that we are all going through this together. this may sound cliche, but i think alot of times things are cliche because they are true. i feel that i am standing at the edge of something huge-i guess that would be life. i have alot of adventures ahead of me. specifically, i am looking forward to spending the summer in london and scotland. that is going to be amazing...and exactly what i need.
i love halloween. i love how pumpkins smell when they are lit up, and i love how it never loses its magic.
I get really frustrated and depressed when i think about the future sometimes...but lately i have been filled with a slight sense of optimism. i know that hard things are ahead of me, i know that life will not be easy. but i have started to realize that i am capable of making it, i will be able to go through life in one piece. i can do it. there are going to be awful times and it will be dark and cold and lonely...but that wont change the fact that there are also beaches and sunflowers and good people. i forget that there are good people sometimes; i forget that we are all going through this together. this may sound cliche, but i think alot of times things are cliche because they are true. i feel that i am standing at the edge of something huge-i guess that would be life. i have alot of adventures ahead of me. specifically, i am looking forward to spending the summer in london and scotland. that is going to be amazing...and exactly what i need.
i love halloween. i love how pumpkins smell when they are lit up, and i love how it never loses its magic.