shadows

[vietphoo]

im always chasing a shadow. From before i could remember anything, i was always chasing a shadow. Never reached what i was chasing though, and it always ended up wrong somehow. And i guess that took a bad turn on me. I don't reach as far for whatever i want. I no longer put in the extra effort to get anything. Try but not too much, to prevent myself from getting too hurt. And once again, the thing im reaching for is moving just out of my reach, kind of in a taunting way, and it doesn't matter how hard i want to give up, it huants me just enough to keep me reaching.

I hope things work out ok this time. I seriously do hope so.