At the end of the day your another day older, that's all you can say for the life of the poor
At the end of this day my confidence and people has returned slightly. No the world is not out to get me and yes I can just relax and have fun but now im mellowing almost too much. I need my fire and excitement back, i especially think im not as sexual as i used to be and it takes more for me to get turned on, damn, never mess with your physiology by taking happy medicine. Oh well, my psychologist said we can lower my dosage so now i wont feel so dead as much, she even think i can go right off of it. but then again she's not my physical doctor so theres not much that she can do even though right now i feel like i need off of that schtuff. I really need to find my book Metamorphosis by Kafka, i feel like reading it, because although its into something undesirable, they get a chance to change completely and become something new. Yes i was cynical this morning but thats just the way I am I cant help it sometimes.
People are confusing to me sometimes, everyone is basically a different species speaking a different language, the only way we truly communicate is through basic means of eating sleeping and drinking. its what we eat and drink and when we sleep that makes us lol. think about that one!
I don't know what to do this weekend, i have a good idea, a good idea, a bad idea, and a not so bad idea. I can't decide which one to pick. Especially since there is going to be some pirate fun going down on saturday which i would love.
Damn, im too damn relaxed, with the world coming to an end i feel soooo relaxed lol oh well there isnt really much to update on since this morning just an improvement in my room that amazingly came through interactions with other poeple.
Also i realize after all this time and being a tomboy most of my life, was i just a fuckin little flirt as a kid? and maybe thats why i have so many problems with communicating to guys my feelings? because im communicating them in a way that a guy would? indescript and not coherant at all!!!! lol but of course because im a a girl now i dont speak the linguo any more (linguo IS dead)
hmmm thats about it yay! <3
People are confusing to me sometimes, everyone is basically a different species speaking a different language, the only way we truly communicate is through basic means of eating sleeping and drinking. its what we eat and drink and when we sleep that makes us lol. think about that one!
I don't know what to do this weekend, i have a good idea, a good idea, a bad idea, and a not so bad idea. I can't decide which one to pick. Especially since there is going to be some pirate fun going down on saturday which i would love.
Damn, im too damn relaxed, with the world coming to an end i feel soooo relaxed lol oh well there isnt really much to update on since this morning just an improvement in my room that amazingly came through interactions with other poeple.
Also i realize after all this time and being a tomboy most of my life, was i just a fuckin little flirt as a kid? and maybe thats why i have so many problems with communicating to guys my feelings? because im communicating them in a way that a guy would? indescript and not coherant at all!!!! lol but of course because im a a girl now i dont speak the linguo any more (linguo IS dead)
hmmm thats about it yay! <3