how to inspire other people
My mom told me to write about my life. I told her, you know I blog, you know I write and keep a mushy journal under my pillow (which I don’t often write in that much recently). She said, “I know you do write and keep a blog and a journal. I’ve read it. It’s different from what you usually write. Write about your life, to inspire others.” I was like, cool my mom reads my sloppy blog entries of hate and more hate and regrets, but what is so inspiring about my life that I should write?
How can a 22- year old, 111 lbs girl (yes, I call myself girl as I lack in height, I am only 5’1’’) be inspiring to others. I never got high grades in college, I never joined and actively participate in any orgs back then. I never had citations nor awards. I was never best at anything and to top it all off, I’ve been making bad decisions after bad decisions from as far as I can remember. I have done nothing inspirational in my life.
As I’m writing this, I’m trying to squeeze my brain of any memory that would at the least uplift my self esteem and give my readers something inspiring to read. I always talk about MY life and how I am not contented with it, but in contrary, I actually am.
First, maybe I have to fully asses myself. (which I think I’ve done more than enough) I know what to improve, what to change and what to do. What I don’t know is, HOW to do it. I can’t start.
My mom and I would always argue, I told her that I am never wrong. I can’t be wrong and I won’t lose in an argument. I never accept defeat and she just sat silently as if not listening to me. Okay. I get it, that’s wrong. These things make me the person that I am today, I won’t change one bit. Maybe that’s why I always end up being the villain. I never stop when I want something. STFU your argument is invalid.
You see what I did? I can’t inspire other people by shaping my life in to something it’s not. I just can’t. maybe I can inspire others by them hating the way I think and react on things, inspire them not to think the way I think or act the way I act or not be me. I’ve done a lot of stupid things, things I regret doing and regret not doing. I hope you don’t end up like me. Not knowing what you want in life, you’ll end up having a lot of you don’t. true enough, I am that. I just learned how to live with it and make the most out of it.