Goodbye~
An empty laugher out from your lips. The now Kim JaeJoong is a loser. A loser who can’t defend his own property.
You turned around, too disgusted with your own reflect. Stairs before you looks so inviting to climb it. One step, two steps, you begin to walk until stop in front of a brown color door.
Your fingers outstretched to open it. The door opened wide, exposes you to a familiar scene. You know every corner of the room. Graffiti on the right wall, black stain on the left wall, small cracks on the roof, you know everything.
But now, this room is no longer the room where you are making love with him. No longer a room you run to when you need someone. No longer a room where you are whispering to each other on the bed and talk about the future. All of them are the past.. past that you should buried deep down inside your heart.
3 picture frames that stand side by side on the table interest you. Slowly, you walked over it and smile wherever you remember the event behind that photos. Your and Yunho’s photos. The events were still lingering in your mind clearly.
You took one of the frame, opened it and took out its content. After that you do the same thing on the other 2. And then you put that photos in your pants pocket.
“Jae?” a familiar voice makes you turn your body immediately.
A small smile come to your lips as you seeing a figure standing on the verge of the door.
“what are you doing here?” said the figure. His eyebrows knit together when they saw the three empty frames.
“Hey! Where’re the photos? You take it?” he asked, pointed to the frames.
“no.. when I see they’re already empty” you said flatly. Your right hand squeezing the photos inside your pants.
“weird.. I thought I still see it this morning.. umma may remove it. Wait a minute, I ask her..”
“wait!!” you grab his arm. He turned and looked at you with a confused stare.
“that photos were not important. No need to searh it.. we.. better talk.. as we often do..” you said with a smile. You turned to the bed which looked so beautiful and then turned back to him.
“it’s okay if I sit in the bed?” you asked doubtfully. The man nodded. “sit..” he said.
You nodded and sitting on the edge of the bed carefully. Then your hand grabbed one of the two teddy bears that sitting pretty in the middle of the bed, holding it close to your chest.
“Jae, I-“
“how’s Hyebin’s preparation?” you asked quickly.
“She? Well.. all goes according to the plan. Jae-“
“oh well then. Looks like my presence was not too helpful” you put the teddy bear back into the place and get up from the bed.
“Jae-“
“you better get ready. The event will begin shortly. It’s not good to make the guests wait..” then you throw a smile and turned around.
“Jae wait!” this time his hand hold you from leaving.
You turned around. “it’s not good to make the guests wait..” you’re pulling your arm out of his hand. Finally he nodded in understanding.
You walked towards the door and opened it. “oh yes.. congratulation on your wedding, Yunho” you said just before stepping out.
You’re running quickly down the stairs and straight into the bathroom. Tears flowing already down your cheeks. You.. who never cried in front of anyone prefer to keep your own tears.
You know and you realize sooner or later this day would happen. You’re trying to convince yourself that today is not the end of everything. But.. why everything feels so heavy?
“Jae? Are you in there?” the sound of someone surprise you.
“a.. a minute!” you shouted. You watched your reflect on the glass. Anyone who saw would know that you’d been crying. Secretly you cursing your eyes for swollen like this.
You put a smile on your face before opened the door for someone out there.
“Hey Yun.. what’s wrong?” you asked with a smile that never left your lips.
His hand reached out to touch your right eye. “You.. been crying?” he asked.
“Cry? Of course not!” you said, smiling nervously. His eyebrows knits together seeing your reaction. Without waiting for long you forward your body, wanting to get out from the bathroom. However his muscular body block you.
“Yun aside.. I wanna go out!” you said.
Yunho shook his head. “no Jae.. not before we speak” he said. You raised your head an your eyes staring at each other directly.
“there’s nothing to talk about, Yunho..” you whispered. Your eyes never left his dark brown eyes.
Don’t know what demon possessed him, slowly Yunho leaned his face toward you. However, you managed to hold your hand against his lips before touching yours.
“Yunho, it’s not good..” you said. Yunho immediately straightened up and rubbed his temple.
“sorry Jae.. I don’t know why I did it. I’d better go outside to meet the guests..” it looks like a déjà vu to you. He, turned his back and walked away from you.
“you know why Yunho.. but you’re too scared to admin it..
“ you whispered is silence. Because you still love me..
You follow him outside to meet the guests. “hyung.. are you okay?” you turned around and found Junsu stood beside you with a worried face.
“Me? Of course! Today is a happy day is it?” you said with a smile.
“but you’re not happy hyung..” he said again. You smiled weakly and hold his hands. “thanks for all your attenton Su.. but I’m really okay. I admid I was shocked when I heard it first. But I realize this is all for us. For you, for me, for Yoochun, for Changmin, for the sake of our careers..”
“But hyung-“
“Jungu ssh.. it’s alright.. this marriage did not end of everything tight..”
“but this is the end for you, hyung! Because after this you’re gonna leave us right??” he said with watery eyes.
“Junsu!!” you said loudly after hearing the sentence that came out from his mouth.
Yoochun turned, Changmin froze in his place and glass in Yunho’s hand immediately fall to the ground. All three went straight to where Junsu and you’re standing.
“it’s not true right hyung??” Changmin said while shaking your shoulders.
“Junsu you’re kidding right??” asked Yoochun. Only Yunho who are not commenting, but looking at you with a look that couldn’t be explained.
You laughed. “Junsu just joking of course! He never serious right!” you said while continuing to laugh. Junsu in front of you forcing a laugh too seeing you like that. Yoochun and Changmin sighed with reliefe.
“alright.. alright.. let’s get ready..” Changmin said.
“I’m going to bathroom first okay~” you said, pointed into the house. Yoochun nodded while Junsu watched at you with sad eyes.
You threw a smile to Junsu before turning and went into the house. Past the bathroom, you exit through the back door.
Music can be heard behind you. And the sound of the MC “let us welcome the bridegroom!” you turned to the house and smile. “Goodbye~” you whispred before turning back and walking away from the house.
And tears coming down to Junsu’s cheeks..
~FIN
A/N : finally finish writing 1 fic again~~ my english is still sucks :(
how about give me some comment? *offer yoonjae's cookies*
btw, i'm dreaming about them last night! in my dream i saw jaejoong called yunho "yobo!! yobooo!!!" LOL