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I think when your little you assume that your life will be easy. No matter how much pain you go through, you always assume that it's going to get easier and that you will have the fairy tale. And maybe that's true. Maybe everything will work out happily in the end. And I hope it does. I just wish the end would come a little sooner. That sounded wrong, I mean, I hope the happy and the easy will come a little sooner. I sit here, self-reflection in full swing, and then I think how selfish I am being. Yes, Emily, your middle-class suburban life style has been incredibly difficult compared to 90% of the world. I should definately be discontent.
I feel restless that's all. I want something big and new and untarnished to happen. I want something to start. I feel like I'm in a rut and I'm going to stay in it unless something happens. Soon.
I'd really like to get out of debt and get my credit score up, that would be nice. I realized that when my parents were my age they were married and having babies and knew what was happening in their lives. And they might have been terribly uncertain and afraid, but at least they were going. Moving, evolving.
Audrey let me borrow her heating pad today and it is about one of the most amazing inventions ever.
My friends make me happy. My co-workers, they make me happy too. I wish they could all meet and mesh and become one group, that would be very satisfying to have the people I care about the most (family not included) connect with the people I see the most, and also like a whole lot. I know. Keep personal and professional lives seperate. It's incredibly difficult for me because I do want to be apart from work in that I don't want them to know the crazy college Emily (it's the reason I don't get drunk w/ my co-workers) but I would like them to see the fun, laughing side.
I don't know if this makes sense. I want to see my friends all the time, it would help if they were a part of this world.
I feel restless that's all. I want something big and new and untarnished to happen. I want something to start. I feel like I'm in a rut and I'm going to stay in it unless something happens. Soon.
I'd really like to get out of debt and get my credit score up, that would be nice. I realized that when my parents were my age they were married and having babies and knew what was happening in their lives. And they might have been terribly uncertain and afraid, but at least they were going. Moving, evolving.
Audrey let me borrow her heating pad today and it is about one of the most amazing inventions ever.
My friends make me happy. My co-workers, they make me happy too. I wish they could all meet and mesh and become one group, that would be very satisfying to have the people I care about the most (family not included) connect with the people I see the most, and also like a whole lot. I know. Keep personal and professional lives seperate. It's incredibly difficult for me because I do want to be apart from work in that I don't want them to know the crazy college Emily (it's the reason I don't get drunk w/ my co-workers) but I would like them to see the fun, laughing side.
I don't know if this makes sense. I want to see my friends all the time, it would help if they were a part of this world.