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I saw this and liked the concept. Besides, delirium has struck, so I'm either going to be extremely honest or I'm going to be using fake words like "odelay" and believing they're real ones.
I hope this doesn't come out as too pseudo-intellectual or emotional. I guess it just never hurts to be serious once in a while.
Oh, and someone thought that I was going to make this a list of twenty people I'd like to beat with a wooden mallet. That in mind, I'm going to try and prove her wrong.
"20 things I wish I could say to you."
Here's the Rules:
1. List twenty things you wish you could say to people but can't.
2. Don't say who they are.
3. Never discuss it again.
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1.) I love you. You guys are the reason I'm here, for some very obvious reasons and some less direct. If ever I was down on my luck and I needed help, I know I can always count on you, and I know that a lot of people my age don't have that sort of relationship, or luxury. It's not just material or tangible things, either. I can always come to you for advice, no matter how personal, and rarely do I feel I have to keep something from you. As well, if I were ever so lost that I was considering something foolish, knowing how much it would hurt you has often been my one reason for hanging around and trying not to disappoint you. I appreciate everything you've done for me. Thanks.
2.) You're my hero. You're one of the greatest men I've met in my entire life. You've labored all your life for your family and we love you more than you'll ever know for it. While you don't have a whole lot of material things to show for it, it doesn't seem to phase you so long as you've got the people you care about on your side, and that's what impresses me the most. I sort of feel we don't have a whole lot to talk about, especially since your life changed so drastically. But I, and we, will be there for you no matter what.
3.) You're my best friend, and I appreciate you. Growing up sucks, but you gotta do it, and I know you can. Take care of yourself, ignore what other people think, and continue being a wonderful person, and others will appreciate you as much as I do. I can't say a whole lot more without sounding harsh, which I don't intend to. I just know you can pull yourself together if you try, and I'm always here to help. Just don't call eight times in an hour. I hope that sounds genuine, because it's meant that way, in as few words as I can express it in. Take care of yourself and others will see how great of a friend you are.
4.) You two are like the siblings I never had. Sorry I don't hang out as much. I may be younger than you, so I hope my saying I'm proud of what you've done for yourselves comes off as sincere and not pretentious. You two are great together, and the thought of your terrible demonspawns toddling about your future home is both horrifying and adorable. Just keep in mind, you can't reproduce if you never log off WoW. I love you both.
5.) You were my best friend for longer than I care to consider, I miss you and wish you well. I wish we could just jump right back into being a moderately obnoxious duo of destruction. It just seems you've got your things together pretty well, and that you're very well aware of that fact. Just because others don't have the same benefits you've become accustom to in recent times, and haven't settled in as comfortably and matured as much as you see yourself as having done, doesn't mean they're inferior. I love you, man. I miss my best friend.
6.) You're the best friend I've made at college and I miss seeing you around. I know you're still here, but I suppose it's just lack of free time and a slight growth in maturity keeping us from chuggaweeing and drinking beer into the wee hours of the morning. Stop by any time.
7.) First loves are a ridiculous thing. You're a good person, and I'm sorry for all the outlandish arguments we've found ourselves in. I've honestly been a push of a button away from calling you and tell exactly that, but I'm afraid of what you're say, and more importantly, what you'll think. Maybe one of these days I'll suck it up, put on my big boy panties and call.
8.) Confusing isn't even that half of it. Either way, you're a wonderful person with a compelling and beautiful mind. I guess still having that whimsy about the world in you is a mixed bag, isn't it? You can see the wonderful things that some would overlook, but you don't want to let go of the ones your really fond of. Like I said one number back, first loves are a ridiculous thing. Cryptic enough for ya? You'll be alright. And if you ever need me, I'm a phone call away, and willing to listen to complaining on any kind.
9.) Sorry for being a douche. It's a decent way to keep bad people off your property and out of your endeavors, but also a good way to upset generally good people, and to make the worst of people into militant enemies. So, if you know I like you, don't mind the angry banter and take it with a grain of salt, and if you know I don't want you here, don't come back.
10.) Man up. You're a really great dude, and especially generous and kind. Perhaps a touch too generous and kind. I've learned myself, if you don't want people using you and your things as public domain, sometimes you have to put your fist down. Maybe even consider brandishing a pointy weapon... Though I don't condone it. Notice how a lot of the people I have gotten rid of in recent times came to you when I wasn't dealing with their idiocy anymore. Think about it. You're far too nice to be taken advantage of like that, and it's not gonna stop until you do something.
11.) You owe me more gas money than I can possibly imagine.
12.) I'm sorry things went the way they did. I wonder how they would be if we had went about the situation differently. I hope you're doing alright, though I'm fairly certain your answer would be somewhat the same whether or not you were. You're a wonderful person, and I hope you are happy. The next time I'm in Baltimore, I really will give you a call... But, I swear to Christ, if I have to come so close as to even smell Dundalk...
13.) I'm not particularly fond of you, I can't figure out how to make it more clear, and I'll most likely see you in Hell.
14. Get a job, clean yourself up, take your medication, and stop using your almost magical level of craziness as some sort of crutch. I know you're capable of doing better for yourself, but I also know that, so long as you can get away easily with not doing so, you won't bother.
15. I miss you guys. The music was fun, the debauchery was rad, and I'm glad to have been a part of it. It's a shame that couldn't stick together and keep making music, because I know it could have gone somewhere. I'm sorry for the things that were said. Next time I see you, I'll buy you a drink. Y'un't do it.
16. Stick up for yourself! Get some confidence and wear your big, burly man-nuts on your sleeve. You're a really nice kid, and, while a lot of people wouldn't know it, extremely intelligent and knowledgeable about music. Though, sadly, Shepherd University is just an overgrown high school, and you're still gonna be called a nerd and picked on if you don't get some confidence, maybe even a little cocky swagger, and start telling kids to stick it up their asses before you do it for them.
17. I'm sorry.
I was hoping I would be able to finish these... But it seems not. I really can't think of anything else I wanna say so bad that I'd write it down and add it to this list. Hope it wasn't too wussy and girlie of me.
I hope this doesn't come out as too pseudo-intellectual or emotional. I guess it just never hurts to be serious once in a while.
Oh, and someone thought that I was going to make this a list of twenty people I'd like to beat with a wooden mallet. That in mind, I'm going to try and prove her wrong.
"20 things I wish I could say to you."
Here's the Rules:
1. List twenty things you wish you could say to people but can't.
2. Don't say who they are.
3. Never discuss it again.
>><<<<>>>><<<<>>>><<<<>>>><<<<>>>><<<<>>>>
1.) I love you. You guys are the reason I'm here, for some very obvious reasons and some less direct. If ever I was down on my luck and I needed help, I know I can always count on you, and I know that a lot of people my age don't have that sort of relationship, or luxury. It's not just material or tangible things, either. I can always come to you for advice, no matter how personal, and rarely do I feel I have to keep something from you. As well, if I were ever so lost that I was considering something foolish, knowing how much it would hurt you has often been my one reason for hanging around and trying not to disappoint you. I appreciate everything you've done for me. Thanks.
2.) You're my hero. You're one of the greatest men I've met in my entire life. You've labored all your life for your family and we love you more than you'll ever know for it. While you don't have a whole lot of material things to show for it, it doesn't seem to phase you so long as you've got the people you care about on your side, and that's what impresses me the most. I sort of feel we don't have a whole lot to talk about, especially since your life changed so drastically. But I, and we, will be there for you no matter what.
3.) You're my best friend, and I appreciate you. Growing up sucks, but you gotta do it, and I know you can. Take care of yourself, ignore what other people think, and continue being a wonderful person, and others will appreciate you as much as I do. I can't say a whole lot more without sounding harsh, which I don't intend to. I just know you can pull yourself together if you try, and I'm always here to help. Just don't call eight times in an hour. I hope that sounds genuine, because it's meant that way, in as few words as I can express it in. Take care of yourself and others will see how great of a friend you are.
4.) You two are like the siblings I never had. Sorry I don't hang out as much. I may be younger than you, so I hope my saying I'm proud of what you've done for yourselves comes off as sincere and not pretentious. You two are great together, and the thought of your terrible demonspawns toddling about your future home is both horrifying and adorable. Just keep in mind, you can't reproduce if you never log off WoW. I love you both.
5.) You were my best friend for longer than I care to consider, I miss you and wish you well. I wish we could just jump right back into being a moderately obnoxious duo of destruction. It just seems you've got your things together pretty well, and that you're very well aware of that fact. Just because others don't have the same benefits you've become accustom to in recent times, and haven't settled in as comfortably and matured as much as you see yourself as having done, doesn't mean they're inferior. I love you, man. I miss my best friend.
6.) You're the best friend I've made at college and I miss seeing you around. I know you're still here, but I suppose it's just lack of free time and a slight growth in maturity keeping us from chuggaweeing and drinking beer into the wee hours of the morning. Stop by any time.
7.) First loves are a ridiculous thing. You're a good person, and I'm sorry for all the outlandish arguments we've found ourselves in. I've honestly been a push of a button away from calling you and tell exactly that, but I'm afraid of what you're say, and more importantly, what you'll think. Maybe one of these days I'll suck it up, put on my big boy panties and call.
8.) Confusing isn't even that half of it. Either way, you're a wonderful person with a compelling and beautiful mind. I guess still having that whimsy about the world in you is a mixed bag, isn't it? You can see the wonderful things that some would overlook, but you don't want to let go of the ones your really fond of. Like I said one number back, first loves are a ridiculous thing. Cryptic enough for ya? You'll be alright. And if you ever need me, I'm a phone call away, and willing to listen to complaining on any kind.
9.) Sorry for being a douche. It's a decent way to keep bad people off your property and out of your endeavors, but also a good way to upset generally good people, and to make the worst of people into militant enemies. So, if you know I like you, don't mind the angry banter and take it with a grain of salt, and if you know I don't want you here, don't come back.
10.) Man up. You're a really great dude, and especially generous and kind. Perhaps a touch too generous and kind. I've learned myself, if you don't want people using you and your things as public domain, sometimes you have to put your fist down. Maybe even consider brandishing a pointy weapon... Though I don't condone it. Notice how a lot of the people I have gotten rid of in recent times came to you when I wasn't dealing with their idiocy anymore. Think about it. You're far too nice to be taken advantage of like that, and it's not gonna stop until you do something.
11.) You owe me more gas money than I can possibly imagine.
12.) I'm sorry things went the way they did. I wonder how they would be if we had went about the situation differently. I hope you're doing alright, though I'm fairly certain your answer would be somewhat the same whether or not you were. You're a wonderful person, and I hope you are happy. The next time I'm in Baltimore, I really will give you a call... But, I swear to Christ, if I have to come so close as to even smell Dundalk...
13.) I'm not particularly fond of you, I can't figure out how to make it more clear, and I'll most likely see you in Hell.
14. Get a job, clean yourself up, take your medication, and stop using your almost magical level of craziness as some sort of crutch. I know you're capable of doing better for yourself, but I also know that, so long as you can get away easily with not doing so, you won't bother.
15. I miss you guys. The music was fun, the debauchery was rad, and I'm glad to have been a part of it. It's a shame that couldn't stick together and keep making music, because I know it could have gone somewhere. I'm sorry for the things that were said. Next time I see you, I'll buy you a drink. Y'un't do it.
16. Stick up for yourself! Get some confidence and wear your big, burly man-nuts on your sleeve. You're a really nice kid, and, while a lot of people wouldn't know it, extremely intelligent and knowledgeable about music. Though, sadly, Shepherd University is just an overgrown high school, and you're still gonna be called a nerd and picked on if you don't get some confidence, maybe even a little cocky swagger, and start telling kids to stick it up their asses before you do it for them.
17. I'm sorry.
I was hoping I would be able to finish these... But it seems not. I really can't think of anything else I wanna say so bad that I'd write it down and add it to this list. Hope it wasn't too wussy and girlie of me.