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sometimes i feel that people find me intellectually inferior and emotionally naive. i abhor the condescending nature people and regret, most of all, that i ever let anyone really get to me. (on the contrary, there are many people i find incredibly empowering.)
[note to self: don't let people get to me. follow own advice.]
i understand the self-destructive tendencies of myself as well as other humans (our desires and our addictions). now i must apply what i know is best for me (this has always been the hardest part!)
healthy activity for the mind
writing
reading
meditation
walks and bike rides (dad threw my bike away, so no bike)
conversation with lovely people
natural methods of releasing endorphins
healthy food and hot tea
productivity and satisfying projects
not hating anyone/thing (i always say, hate makes the heart heavy)
thinking good thoughts
music
reading about eastern philosophy, esp buddhism
unhealthy
- mind-numbing or unnecessary commodities (come on, they can never really fill the void)
- stress, anxiety and bad thoughts
- being sucked in and vulnerable to the addictive nature of things like tv, computer, shopping, soda, etc (BAD! i have most of these things under control)
- impulsive eating (DISTRACTION!)
- trying to justify things in my head as an easy way out
- thinking about money (brings a slew of other anxieties)
- developing bad habits and addictions (drugs, cigs, alcohol, etc. dependencies are awful. bad habits are easy to acquire and hard to shake. i do not engage in any of the things listed here)
- hating
- fits of laziness
healthy environments for the mind
the natural world, NATURE! weeeeeeeee!
the presence of empowering, thoughtful, strong, light-hearted and compassionate people
new places, especially exploration with friends
unhealthy
- home life (high-stress, high-anxiety...always screaming)
- school (fettering, confining, stressful)
- being around people who make me feel CRAPPY
when i follow my own advice i feel strong, free and capable of anything. it's good for the human spirit.
[not to self: talk to strangers. follow own advice.]
[note to self: don't let people get to me. follow own advice.]
i understand the self-destructive tendencies of myself as well as other humans (our desires and our addictions). now i must apply what i know is best for me (this has always been the hardest part!)
healthy activity for the mind
writing
reading
meditation
walks and bike rides (dad threw my bike away, so no bike)
conversation with lovely people
natural methods of releasing endorphins
healthy food and hot tea
productivity and satisfying projects
not hating anyone/thing (i always say, hate makes the heart heavy)
thinking good thoughts
music
reading about eastern philosophy, esp buddhism
unhealthy
- mind-numbing or unnecessary commodities (come on, they can never really fill the void)
- stress, anxiety and bad thoughts
- being sucked in and vulnerable to the addictive nature of things like tv, computer, shopping, soda, etc (BAD! i have most of these things under control)
- impulsive eating (DISTRACTION!)
- trying to justify things in my head as an easy way out
- thinking about money (brings a slew of other anxieties)
- developing bad habits and addictions (drugs, cigs, alcohol, etc. dependencies are awful. bad habits are easy to acquire and hard to shake. i do not engage in any of the things listed here)
- hating
- fits of laziness
healthy environments for the mind
the natural world, NATURE! weeeeeeeee!
the presence of empowering, thoughtful, strong, light-hearted and compassionate people
new places, especially exploration with friends
unhealthy
- home life (high-stress, high-anxiety...always screaming)
- school (fettering, confining, stressful)
- being around people who make me feel CRAPPY
when i follow my own advice i feel strong, free and capable of anything. it's good for the human spirit.
[not to self: talk to strangers. follow own advice.]