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Right about now, Waiting for this phone call.
Feels like i'm going to throw up my heart. Thats such an Emo expression, but its the best way to describe how totally fucking awfull I feel.
Why Am I allways the desprate one who calls all the time, why am I the one who has been crying everynight for the past 4 nights? ::Sigh::
This is well and truly, Doing my head in. :\
I wish the world would swollow me whole. I Feel like crying but so far I haven't I just keep Swollowing that feeling. Uggh. This is horrible. What will he say...?
I don't know what to say to him if he says somthing horrible. I really don't. I'll just cry and then hang up... Ugh I'm such a loooooser. Everytime I think about it my heart hurts. GOD Who need love if it hurts THIS bad?!
UGH! I Love him I really really do, And I'm beeing this little weirdo who can't stop thinking about him. I mean all my friends are like, "This happend to me, I was just the same" But, I don't thnk they where quite as bad as me...
Every 5 minutes I Stare at the clock... This is going to drive me insane...