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Ive tried so hard to be happy at school.. I look out the same damn window everyday in school.. and i stare at the same fucking tree.. I scrutinize it day after day as if it has the answers that im looking for.. or better yet.. what questions im looking for.. and all it can seem to retort back to me are a few quivers of its leaves and a slight movement of its branches.. I study this window, and this tree as if it has something to offer me.. anything, anyone.. yet, for somreason, all it does is remind me of simple things that used to be.. things that are past. God.. why cant i understand that word.. past.. its like im stuck in it praying for someone to come and join in the festivities as we used to. But everyone else is too interested in there own lives, to busy living in the future. All i have now is this simple tree that from time to time answers my stares with strategic shakes.. But im beggining to think that its only the wind simply coaxing the tree to move.. oh well.. damn wind.. I feel all alone now.. at least i had a damn tree to keep me company, now whats left? a tree that moves in wind that i like to stare at? oh yay! ok im done now