And life goes on....
So I think the last time I wrote on this thing was in 2005. I have nothing better to do right now, so why not?
I'm sitting in lower Kirkhof, just letting my mind run. There's so much going through my head, not even a mind-reader could sort it all out. It's crazy how something can change in a day, and what you thought you had going good for you, suddenly is ripped away and you don't know how to get it back. It's also crazy how a single person can have such a grasp on you, and you can't even explain why. There is no rhyme or reason. You put your hopes into something that may never even amount to anything, and then in one night, you realize the last two months have been a complete waste. Waste of your time and your emotions. I really hate how I let things take control of me. i need to work on this. God should be the one thing that has complete control over me, all the time. Instead I let things get in the way of him doing that. This is going to be my goal from now until.. I don't know when. But I am going to be working on it a lot. I need to focus on school and my 3 new bestfriends. I need to focus on serving God and serving others.
I guess in a way I'm glad that I found out in time or else I would still be wasting my time on him. I need to let go. I will continue to wait, patiently and obediently.
I'm sitting in lower Kirkhof, just letting my mind run. There's so much going through my head, not even a mind-reader could sort it all out. It's crazy how something can change in a day, and what you thought you had going good for you, suddenly is ripped away and you don't know how to get it back. It's also crazy how a single person can have such a grasp on you, and you can't even explain why. There is no rhyme or reason. You put your hopes into something that may never even amount to anything, and then in one night, you realize the last two months have been a complete waste. Waste of your time and your emotions. I really hate how I let things take control of me. i need to work on this. God should be the one thing that has complete control over me, all the time. Instead I let things get in the way of him doing that. This is going to be my goal from now until.. I don't know when. But I am going to be working on it a lot. I need to focus on school and my 3 new bestfriends. I need to focus on serving God and serving others.
I guess in a way I'm glad that I found out in time or else I would still be wasting my time on him. I need to let go. I will continue to wait, patiently and obediently.