Another trip to the hospital
Even if it's probably my 5th time going to the Philippine Heart Center to have my routine check-ups and tests, somehow I always feel nervous, even if I give an excuse it's just so chilly, well in reality, it really is so cold in there (or maybe the cold is making me nervous, LOL). And every time my doctor checks my blood pressure, he always says it's too high because I'm always anxious (I'm trying my best to control it though). But one thing I don't like is that my mom always has to accompany me and every time she's with me, I always get too awkward to say something to my doctor because she's always the one who reports to my doctor what's happening to me, and that sometimes, she makes up stories and she even emphasizes the fact that I'm too sedentary and I rarely get to do anything strenuous. It's not the whole truth though, and she does not even understand my condition, and yet, she keeps on assuming things. But then anyway, even if my doctor says my BP's too high for my age, he says that I'm getting better. After he checked my BP, he asked his assistant to do an ECG test on me. As soon as the results were printed, I was amazed at the fact that he just scanned through the entire sheet and told me nothing's wrong. Whoa! It only took him a couple of seconds to read the graph and he gave an interpretation right away!! XDD He even told me why don't I do some sports again. I couldn't tell him why I was not able to go back to strenuous activities because I'm afraid I might just be giving excuses, so I did not say anything.
Well, I dunno. Maybe I just lack the confidence to try to go back to sports. It has been almost four months after my operation and yet, I'm still not used to the changes. Every now and then I still think that my condition will go back even if my doctor keeps telling me that he's very sure that it won't get worse. Maybe it's time I should really trust in him and start believing in myself more. He's so optimistic. I'm so ashamed of myself for doubting. =((
Anyway, it's been months since I've last been there, and I really miss that place. Too bad I can't visit the hospital building because of strict rules. Oh well. =((
Well, I dunno. Maybe I just lack the confidence to try to go back to sports. It has been almost four months after my operation and yet, I'm still not used to the changes. Every now and then I still think that my condition will go back even if my doctor keeps telling me that he's very sure that it won't get worse. Maybe it's time I should really trust in him and start believing in myself more. He's so optimistic. I'm so ashamed of myself for doubting. =((
Anyway, it's been months since I've last been there, and I really miss that place. Too bad I can't visit the hospital building because of strict rules. Oh well. =((