not again...please..i'm sick and tired of it...
I knew it was surely gonna happen, so I've dismissed it. But now it won't stop bothering me.
What is wrong with them, seriously?? They were never so inconsiderate before. I might be wrong to think negatively like this, it may be a joke, but still, it's cruel. They push me away, it's rude, yet they aren't aware of it. I can't help but feel as if they're planning something (I may be wrong); I dunno, but the way how they see me, well, I'd say it changed. I always feel out of place everytime I'm with them. That's why all I can do is be silent when they're around; some just selectively listen to what I say. It's always as if they're not interested in what I tell them.
I've already noticed this a long time ago, I seriously thought it would change, but no. It just keeps getting worse. I honestly don't know if I can still keep up with this. I'd have to do something. If not, I'd just have to leave. I'd only keep in touch with those I trust; with those who will still be my friends even if I'm having negative thoughts on the others.
Please. I'm begging you. Reflect on your actions, not only on the ones you've done to me, but also to the others who have been hurt by the same thing. I'm getting sick and tired.
Maybe I know the reason why I'm being treated like this. Because I've got a lot of mistakes over the past years. I've screwed up many times; hurt my friends many times; lost their trust many times, and now I really want to show my sincerest apologies. All I'm asking is for you to give me a chance. But if you're not willing to do so, I'll understand. Just like I said earlier, I'd pretty much leave, besides, I'm happier with my college friends.
I don't want to leave, but I really would, if you give me no choice.
I'll say it one more time: I'm getting tired, and I don't want to lose my sanity just because of these.
What is wrong with them, seriously?? They were never so inconsiderate before. I might be wrong to think negatively like this, it may be a joke, but still, it's cruel. They push me away, it's rude, yet they aren't aware of it. I can't help but feel as if they're planning something (I may be wrong); I dunno, but the way how they see me, well, I'd say it changed. I always feel out of place everytime I'm with them. That's why all I can do is be silent when they're around; some just selectively listen to what I say. It's always as if they're not interested in what I tell them.
I've already noticed this a long time ago, I seriously thought it would change, but no. It just keeps getting worse. I honestly don't know if I can still keep up with this. I'd have to do something. If not, I'd just have to leave. I'd only keep in touch with those I trust; with those who will still be my friends even if I'm having negative thoughts on the others.
Please. I'm begging you. Reflect on your actions, not only on the ones you've done to me, but also to the others who have been hurt by the same thing. I'm getting sick and tired.
Maybe I know the reason why I'm being treated like this. Because I've got a lot of mistakes over the past years. I've screwed up many times; hurt my friends many times; lost their trust many times, and now I really want to show my sincerest apologies. All I'm asking is for you to give me a chance. But if you're not willing to do so, I'll understand. Just like I said earlier, I'd pretty much leave, besides, I'm happier with my college friends.
I don't want to leave, but I really would, if you give me no choice.
I'll say it one more time: I'm getting tired, and I don't want to lose my sanity just because of these.