So Wonderful
Well last night wasnt too bad at all, hehe. I hate being trapped in this fucking house. He stayed with me until about 3am, he wanted to sleep over but that is unfortunately frowned upon by management. So he stayed as long as he could, which is sooo nice of him. Its nice to be with someone who cant stand being at home without you.
Anyway, he loves coming over, staying with me, and just being there for me, which is very very scary. I am very guilty of causing problems between us because I figure I cant be this happy, this cant be for real, it will end very very soon, so of course my dumb ass starts things that I shouldnt, like always. But he just ignores my little bullshit and keeps going, I guess thats what I really needed, someone who is going to be able to look past my pissy, little bitchy bullshit, call me on it, and keep trucking. Oh I just love that about him.
I sent away for my massage exam and will be taking that as soon as I hear back from them on the exact test date. I love making people feel better and massage is a great way to relieve stress and let go of some those nasty things that are building inside. I know I would love a massage right about now myself.
I have a appt this week to see a nutritionist and an exercise trainer to evaluate all my laziness, hehe. Its part of my prequalification for the bypass surgery. Insurance will pay for all of it but a small %. I am really thinking about getting it done because I dont want to end up with the health problems my father has, he didnt get them from being overweight, he got them because it runs in his family. I just figured I dont need to help genetics out with being a fat ass as well. I researched the procedure for about 3 months, and I have weighted all the pros and cons of the new lifestyle I will have to live afterwards. I wont be able to drink any alcohol for about a year afterwards and my oral contraceptive will not absorb as well, so I will have to either get the shot, or the patch or something else because I dont want to just use condoms alone, because those bitches break, and its always good to be protected as much as possible, hehe.
The sun is out at the moment, which is a definite change from last night and the past freaking week. Its going to rain later as well, YIPPEE!! but Im enjoying the sunshine from the hell hole as much as possible. Okay, Im done complaining now.