What would you do if: » I committed suicide: Tend to your grave, live my life in complete silence and refuse the world » I said I liked you: I would be confused » I kissed you: Return the kiss » I lived next door to you: Visit » I started smoking: Please don't, you know how I feel... » I stole something: ... » I was hospitalized: Never leave your side » I ran away from home: Find you, it's my job » I got into a fight and you weren't there: Finish off your opponent later
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY: » Personality: You're an amazing girl... words can't describe » Eyes: Beautiful and reflective » Face: Carved by an angel... » Hair: Despite what you think, I always liked it » Clothes: ... » Mannerisms: ...
[1] Who are you? A personification of all that is impure [2] Are we friends? Friends... [3] When and how did we meet? I tripped you in third grade [4] How have I affected you? Many ways... [5] What do you think of me? ... [6] What's the fondest memory you have of me? Memories are all I'll have from this point, I have to say, every damn second I spent with you. [7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies? ... [8] Do you love me? Love is supposed to be a good feeling, but when I say I love you, I am hit by waves of pain that never subside... is this love? Is having a broken heart part of love? Is this how things are meant to happen? [9] Have I ever hurt you? Yes... but I deserved it... [10] Would you hug me? I doubt I can ever do that again... [11] Would you kiss me? I would... [12] Would you fuck me? Are we married? Then no. [13] Are we close? I would like to be... [14] Emotionally, what stands out? ... [15] Do you wish I was cooler? ... [16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I? 9 [17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. Yumi-Chan (angel) [18] Am I loveable? Yes... [19] How long have you known me? Since the extent of my recorded memory... [20] Describe me in one word. Everything [21] What was your first impression? I hate kids who get to have fun with others and just run around and be normal, I envy them, I hate them for being happy, why can't I be normal? Why do I not hate this girl though? In fact, I find myself wanting to speak to her... so in order to talk to you, I tripped you. [22] Do you still think that way about me now? The first part, sorta. [23] What do you think my weakness is? Ignorance, you're young, don't worry [24] Do you think I'll get married? Of course [25] What about me makes you happy? You're alive [26] What about me makes you sad? ... [27] What reminds you of me? Black Water and Red Roses [28] What's something you would change about me? ... [29] How well do you know me? More than you'd like [30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? ... [31] Do you think I would kill someone? Nope, if you wanted someone dead, I would know and I would carry it out first. [32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
why did you redo this? you know what you doing things like this does to me...look I feel so bad for what I said to you...it's just I want to have a normal friendship with you. I want to be able to have fun with you and you have fun in return. Without you always being down and/or bringing yourself down...i hate it when you do that. i want our friendship to be like...we can just go out or meet up somewhere and laugh and have a good. be able to spend unforgetable moments together...not bg/gf but best of friends...i wish...but I guess I'm asking too much...
Ahem, you're the only person I can depend on and you say you're sick and tired of me... Of course I want to go and meet you someplace, but when I try to call to tell you when I thought we could go to the movies, you either don' return my calls or aren't home. I can't see you ever, I can only talk to you on the phone, and even then, half the time you don't even pickup... You're the only person I really love Tori-Chan, but you keep drifting, and anytime I try to talk to you about something, you get mad at me, I'm so sorry for all the guilt I've caused... I just don't want to be part of your life anymore, it's not worth it, the only thing I do is make you feel guilty, I'm worth nothing... I know you hate it when I put myself down but what in Rathma's name can I honestly say that I do right? I plague you with guilt, I dissapoint my parents, I push away my friends, I scare children, I snap, I'm harsh, I don't remember the last time I even played with my sister because she fucking hates me!
Tell Tori-Chan, what can I do when the only person I thought I could depend on tells me she is sick and tired of me depending on her? What have I got left? I have nothing left to offer, noone left to love, nothing left to take care of me except myself...
I died that day, but I've put you through enough guilt, so I won't kill myself, I know you, if I do, I know you'll blame yourself, and I won't be there to tell you otherwise... I am anxious to die... I don't want to be a part of this world, this world that has nothing to offer a human soul reaching for the sky...
I'm sorry, I failed you...
And don't say you fucking care because you didn't mention you missed me in your last entry, you named pretty much everyone but me, you say you want to be best of friends but you don't even miss me now? Either stop lying to me or start upholding your word...
But you fail to mention the times that we actually DO talk on the phone..funny...and just to tell you...although i probably shouldn't be saying this and it's not guilt you caused me, I caused it myself...but since the other day when I said that to you I've felt so bad, it's one of the things I can't get off my mind... I think the only reason I said it, was because I had friends around me...they made me feel strong...I know how pathetic that sounds, but it's true...I even wrote a poem...but that's not important... Dude...i soo didn't say i was sick and tired of you deoending on me...i said that I'm not always gonna be here for you to depend on me....get it right:P And you say that you're not worth anything...well not in my eyes, and you know that...because I've told you more than once my friend... When you say you don't want to be a part of my life anymore, I can hardly believe that...it's just what you're telling me, cuz you think it'll make me happy...but it doesn't. If you wanna leave this place so bad..go ahead and do it...I'm probably going to miss you the most, you know it...but if you hate life so much...I don't want to make you suffer by "making" you stay here...but I'll miss your smile(when you do smile) and making you blush(so cute) and all the good convos we've had...I could always talk to you about anything...even if it was about guys and I knew it was hurting you inside...but you always told me to go ahead...you were always there to listen to me.. You know the other night when I yelled at you...it took that to make me realise...but w.e I'll shut up...cuz I dunno you might not wanna hear it... well I'm glad I wrote that...had to get it off my chest...:P I'm not flat anymore:P you can't make fun of me:P well,,,you know i love you(friends) bye(K)(L) Tori
» I committed suicide: Tend to your grave, live my life in complete silence and refuse the world
» I said I liked you: I would be confused
» I kissed you: Return the kiss
» I lived next door to you: Visit
» I started smoking: Please don't, you know how I feel...
» I stole something: ...
» I was hospitalized: Never leave your side
» I ran away from home: Find you, it's my job
» I got into a fight and you weren't there: Finish off your opponent later
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality: You're an amazing girl... words can't describe
» Eyes: Beautiful and reflective
» Face: Carved by an angel...
» Hair: Despite what you think, I always liked it
» Clothes: ...
» Mannerisms: ...
[1] Who are you? A personification of all that is impure
[2] Are we friends? Friends...
[3] When and how did we meet? I tripped you in third grade
[4] How have I affected you? Many ways...
[5] What do you think of me? ...
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me? Memories are all I'll have from this point, I have to say, every damn second I spent with you.
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies? ...
[8] Do you love me? Love is supposed to be a good feeling, but when I say I love you, I am hit by waves of pain that never subside... is this love? Is having a broken heart part of love? Is this how things are meant to happen?
[9] Have I ever hurt you? Yes... but I deserved it...
[10] Would you hug me? I doubt I can ever do that again...
[11] Would you kiss me? I would...
[12] Would you fuck me? Are we married? Then no.
[13] Are we close? I would like to be...
[14] Emotionally, what stands out? ...
[15] Do you wish I was cooler? ...
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I? 9
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it. Yumi-Chan (angel)
[18] Am I loveable? Yes...
[19] How long have you known me? Since the extent of my recorded memory...
[20] Describe me in one word. Everything
[21] What was your first impression? I hate kids who get to have fun with others and just run around and be normal, I envy them, I hate them for being happy, why can't I be normal? Why do I not hate this girl though? In fact, I find myself wanting to speak to her... so in order to talk to you, I tripped you.
[22] Do you still think that way about me now? The first part, sorta.
[23] What do you think my weakness is? Ignorance, you're young, don't worry
[24] Do you think I'll get married? Of course
[25] What about me makes you happy? You're alive
[26] What about me makes you sad? ...
[27] What reminds you of me? Black Water and Red Roses
[28] What's something you would change about me? ...
[29] How well do you know me? More than you'd like
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't? ...
[31] Do you think I would kill someone? Nope, if you wanted someone dead, I would know and I would carry it out first.
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
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P.S. I started writting a poem...
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Tell Tori-Chan, what can I do when the only person I thought I could depend on tells me she is sick and tired of me depending on her? What have I got left? I have nothing left to offer, noone left to love, nothing left to take care of me except myself...
I died that day, but I've put you through enough guilt, so I won't kill myself, I know you, if I do, I know you'll blame yourself, and I won't be there to tell you otherwise... I am anxious to die... I don't want to be a part of this world, this world that has nothing to offer a human soul reaching for the sky...
I'm sorry, I failed you...
And don't say you fucking care because you didn't mention you missed me in your last entry, you named pretty much everyone but me, you say you want to be best of friends but you don't even miss me now? Either stop lying to me or start upholding your word...
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I think the only reason I said it, was because I had friends around me...they made me feel strong...I know how pathetic that sounds, but it's true...I even wrote a poem...but that's not important...
Dude...i soo didn't say i was sick and tired of you deoending on me...i said that I'm not always gonna be here for you to depend on me....get it right:P
And you say that you're not worth anything...well not in my eyes, and you know that...because I've told you more than once my friend...
When you say you don't want to be a part of my life anymore, I can hardly believe that...it's just what you're telling me, cuz you think it'll make me happy...but it doesn't.
If you wanna leave this place so bad..go ahead and do it...I'm probably going to miss you the most, you know it...but if you hate life so much...I don't want to make you suffer by "making" you stay here...but I'll miss your smile(when you do smile) and making you blush(so cute) and all the good convos we've had...I could always talk to you about anything...even if it was about guys and I knew it was hurting you inside...but you always told me to go ahead...you were always there to listen to me..
You know the other night when I yelled at you...it took that to make me realise...but w.e I'll shut up...cuz I dunno you might not wanna hear it...
well I'm glad I wrote that...had to get it off my chest...:P I'm not flat anymore:P you can't make fun of me:P
well,,,you know i love you(friends)
bye(K)(L)
Tori
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