thirty-six : it feels like i never left
Do you know why the right to know about a pedophile in your neighborhood is called Megan's Law? It's because Jesse Timmedequas, after attempted aggravated assault of a 5-year-old in 1979 and six years in prison for assaulting a 7-year-old in 1981? Lured 7-year-old Megan Kanka into his house in 1994, offering to show her a puppy. Then he raped her,
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Who am I kidding, I would never have done that to anyone. Take a lie down on a scalpel, you unspeakable bitch.
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You know what? Save your backhanded freakin' apology. You don't want to be forgiven, and you sure as fuck don't want to make things right, you just want to say some words that you don't have to mean because you "felt you should" and then be able to tell yourself that you can walk away and it'll never happen again, well it doesn't work like that! If you're sorry for this? Then live with the fucking guilt, and if not then don't insult me by expecting me to listen to you trying to make yourself sound like you've still got a soul in there somewhere.
"Almost justified", "should have known better", what-the fuck-ever! Let me tell you something, I killed people for two reasons, because I had no other choice, or because they deserved it and I still didn't get the satisfaction of walking away from it feeling like I was the good guy. So fuck you. Fuck your two faced half apology. And fuck your meaningless rules.
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I attacked you because I thought it was the right thing to do, because you've killed people too. I know saying it like that makes it sound hypocritical, but it's really not when you consider the situation.. Whatever. Point being, I didn't really kill you because you didn't really die. And if that was torture? You should really look at Amnesty International or something. I mean, what I did was wrong, but let's not act like it was a bigger deal than it was. A few days of pain, maybe a week, and that was it.
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[There's a pause as he starts to say something, then changes his mind.]
No, you know what? Way to just confirm what I already thought. I spent three days unable to walk, stuck on my bedroom floor with the whole bottom half of my body caked with blood. So yeah, three days of starvation, dehydration and pain, on top of the next two days where I could actually get as far as my journal and ask someone to bring me something to eat, on top of being shot, tied up, interrogated, threatened with castration, and then there was the actual experience of dying which I'm not going to discuss with you in detail, but uh, which actually really sucks even if it's temporary, and oh, let's not forget the fact that the terrible crime I committed which entitled you to do that to me, was inviting you to my room ( ... )
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I died. I know what it's like... Listen, you're right and I really am sorry, even if you don't believe it or won't accept it or whatever. I am. I get that you want to hate me and that's totally cool. I don't blame you at all; it's a pretty normal/human thing to do. It doesn't change how I feel though.
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Fuck this. Go find some happy couples to murder, I'm through listening to this crap.
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I'm not the Zodiac Killer. I'm just a girl trying to do the right thing.
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