excuses excuses, its just sex
sex,one of the finest feelings we can share to each other. it can show a person how much they mean to you and the same time show nothing but a left feeling. women and men are equally seen as victims at the bar scene. a man can say words that can make a women feel so good that they melt like ice in the summer. men are the same way if not easier in
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Something like that. Not a fact I dwell on, but I dig the feeling attached to it... Not wanting to eat with chance of tasting some dude's dick from a couple nights prior. I remember some dude mentioning this fact when sharing his passion for eating, while at the same time having gotten out of a relationship with a girl he really dug - expressing he needed just that "one good woman" in his life. I appreciated this as he was somewhat older (35), good looking dude around women all the time, and still thinking that way.
This post sparked some reflection on sex for me. There was this stage in my life where I thought I was a goner, and this huge metamorphosis took place in sex with this chick I met. That was the only relationship we brought books into the mix and shit. That relationship began, as if I was fucking for my life with everything else went way far into the background. I'd never go back to that, unless it would be in extreme masochism.
This also brought to mind that it's been a year and several months since I had sex. Not saying I'm better then anyone for it but only now came to that realization. Tough breaking that year mark. The summer fling of '06 was rough. I rented this movie, just because I heard someone I grew up with had something to do with the making of it. This Mother was asking her son what the deal was with this relationship with this girl and he replied, "it's just a summer thing." I was laughing cause I knew it would turn into some crazy scene, which it was with like murders and crap initiated by an old boyfriend. Summers, girls are on the prowl and just don't care. Which can seem good for scrubs like me, but I'm thinking of working myself into some buddhist thing where I can experiences all these pleasures and crap from the inside.
Anyway I've been depressed occasionally while thinking about lack of sex and relationships when I thought I knew that I wasn't after anything since that draining experience that summer, while focusing outward on some other shit. Well now I come to the realization of how long its been and how I have felt good in so many other ways in which I hadn't in a long time. It must of been the carefree open nature of your post that opened my mind back up. I couldn't figure what exactly I was "stuck" on.
- Paul
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