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Okay, I've decided to record this.
Chris = Friends with Sean. Sean = friends with Natalie. Also, Sean is apparently gay, however he fancies Natalie O.o Chris used to go out with Natalie, however, Natalie broke it off because Sean told her to.
Thom = well... you know.
So I've been talking to Chris a lot recently, and well... started liking him. A lot. I had a very girly moment a few days ago, we were chatting on msn while I was having a mass argument with Thom. See, I told Thom that I fancied Chris a bit (hey - he made me promise to tell him of any changes in emotion - so I did!) and he threw up a mass fit. I mean, I know I felt like I hated him when he told me he fancied Naomi, but when I told him this... he just blew up. He really started 'yelling' (if we were talking in person then he'd be yelling, i imagine. He typed in caps lock). He was really being quite selfish - any way, he "fancied" Naomi, what? a week? two weeks? after I officially dumped him. and here I am, months later, deciding, well amybe I do like Chris.
Anyhoo - I acidently typed this in the wrong conversation -
"That's rich, coming from someone who asked
out a girl who I detest and detests me about a week after a
break up, and you swore you were completely in love with
me, do you even realise how much that hurt?"
Conversation with Chris
[21:06:27] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: I may need you actually... cheer me up, my ex
is going on a long rant about... well, he's "still in love
with" me and I have to listen to his plans of suicide for
the millionth time, even though he hasn't got the guts to
squash an ant, let alone decapitate himself...
[21:09:06] Heathcliff, : lmao! no wonder he still loves you
[21:10:17] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: sorry, I'm feeling thick, come again?
[21:10:50] Heathcliff, : i love you:) or was that too obvious....hmmmm...
[21:11:36] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: lol
[21:11:44] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: naw, completely subtle
[21:12:26] Heathcliff, : well, thats alright then:D i'll shut up bout
these awkward subjects now, before someone forces me to go
to school until i'm 16:-O
[21:12:54] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: heehee
He loves me XD
I may use my first journal LJ cut on this one...
[20:50:55] cheese monst: hi
[20:51:06] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: hi
[20:51:41] cheese monst: does chris know about THE EMOTION YOU FEEL
for him?
[20:53:28] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: very bold... no he doesn't, and I'm not about
to tell him, I'm hoping it'll pass
[20:54:23] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: you won't let him know, right?
[20:54:59] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: please promise me
[20:56:37] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: thom, please?
[20:57:31] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: you won't tell him?
[20:59:07] cheese monst: i wont tell him but it is still an emotion
[20:59:49] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: what do you mean?
[21:00:04] cheese monst: you feel no emotion for anyone else,
remember
[21:01:03] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: I FELT no emotion for anyone else... and I'm
hoping this is just a phase, because I;m not very good with
emotional attachments
[21:02:38] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: you okay?
[21:02:48] cheese monst: not really
[21:03:28] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: I guessed that... explanation?
[21:03:44] cheese monst: cant you guess?
[21:03:51] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: nope
[21:03:59] cheese monst: give it a shot
[21:05:01] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: you want me to fall in love with you and
forget about chris as if h never existed?
[21:05:14] cheese monst: well partly
[21:06:06] cheese monst: that has kind of always been the case only
alex instead of chris
[21:07:06] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: okay... well - you explain it all thoroughly
[21:08:35] cheese monst: well you were sorry that you didnt feel an
emotion for me meaning that you wanted to but now you do
feel an emotion for someone (someone you have only met over
the internet and would be completely different if you met
him in real life) you dont seem to want to feel anything
for me even after everything i have done
[21:10:46] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: sorry, lots of people talking to me, patricia
especially... erm... well...
[21:10:59] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: all I can think of saying right now is kinda
rude and so I won't
[21:11:50] cheese monst: is it against me?
[21:12:29] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: well, no... it's just well.. "tough" :P lol,
naw seriously - grr bloody tricia and... other guy
[21:16:08] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: you okay...?
[21:16:19] cheese monst: no, i feel like crying
[21:16:41] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: how come?
[21:16:56] cheese monst: or shriveling out of existence
[21:17:06] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: I feel like gettting up and dancing and
screaming in glee :) since... well, I won't say.
[21:17:16] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: I felt like that a whie ago
[21:17:19] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: while*
[21:17:25] * •°¤*(¯`°(w)-Ïm·å·ßlåçk·Råíñbøw-(w)°´¯)*¤°•·· Bad dreams
in the night... is now Be Right Back
[21:17:56] * cheese monster of the skies is now Offline
[21:18:40] * cheese monster of the skies is now Online
[21:18:59] cheese monst: to do with chris?
[21:19:10] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: erm... well... maybe
[21:19:15] * •°¤*(¯`°(w)-Ïm·å·ßlåçk·Råíñbøw-(w)°´¯)*¤°•·· Bad dreams
in the night... is now Busy
[21:19:22] cheese monst: what is it?
[21:19:44] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: I don't really think that telling you will do
you a while lot of good...
[21:20:12] cheese monst: i dont care, im about as bad as it gets
[21:20:18] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: honestly?
[21:20:26] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: because I need to giggle some more
[21:20:32] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: but If you don't want to know
[21:20:42] cheese monst: i do
[21:20:56] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: okay then... don't say I didn't warn you...
gimme a second
[21:21:32] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: Heathcliff, Its me - Cathy, I've come home!
Now I'm so cold says:
lmao! no wonder he still loves you
•°¤*(¯`° -Ïm·å·ßlåçk·Råíñbøw- °´¯)*¤°•·· Bad dreams in the
night... says:
sorry, I'm feeling thick, come again?
Heathcliff, Its me - Cathy, I've come home! Now I'm so cold
says:
i love you or was that too obvious....hmmmm...
•°¤*(¯`° -Ïm·å·ßlåçk·Råíñbøw- °´¯)*¤°•·· Bad dreams in the
night... says:
lol
•°¤*(¯`° -Ïm·å·ßlåçk·Råíñbøw- °´¯)*¤°•·· Bad dreams in the
night... says:
naw, completely subtle
[21:21:41] cheese monst: maybe i will get the slightest amount of
sympathy if i know
[21:21:59] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: explain?
[21:22:04] cheese monst: is the other guy chris?
[21:22:11] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: erm... yeah...
[21:24:41] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: I'm gunna ask you for the third time tonight
- Are you okay?
[21:25:04] cheese monst: he will be different in real life to how you
knwo him now
[21:26:06] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: you don't want me to like him like this, do
you>
[21:26:08] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: ?*
[21:26:18] cheese monst: what do you think?
[21:26:57] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: I think that you desperately want me to be
joking about this... well, I would be, judging by all the
things that you've typed out to me
[21:28:03] cheese monst: how do you knwo he is who he says he is?
[21:28:35] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: because I've seen him on webcam enough times
and one of Natalies friends knows him in person
[21:29:30] cheese monst: he will act differently if you talk to him
face to face, he wont be the same person
[21:29:53] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: I'm willing to take those chances
[21:30:53] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: Look, You were (besides Patricia) the first
person I've told about this stuff, isn't that a good thing?
It concerns you, being the ex, you're not the last to
know...
[21:31:41] cheese monst: what did you say back to him?
[21:32:31] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: er... hangon
[21:33:35] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: after I said "naw, completely subtle" he
said something along the lines of "let's get off of this
akward topic" etc. However now we're talking about love
lives again.
[21:34:11] * cheese monster of the skies is now Offline
[21:34:49] * cheese monster of the skies is now Online
[21:35:02] cheese monst: does he know you like him?
[21:35:24] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: erm... he may have got a hint by the last
thing i just said to him....
[21:35:41] cheese monst: why are you doing this to me?
[21:36:20] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: what do you mean?
[21:36:35] cheese monst: do you know how much it hurts to be in my
situation?
[21:38:43] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: That;s rich, coming from someone who asked
out a girl who I setest and detests me about a week after a
break up, and you swore you were completely in love with
me, do you even realise how much that hurt?
[21:38:48] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: detest*
[21:41:00] cheese monst: at least i didnt say i didnt want a
girlfriend
[21:41:10] cheese monst: at least you hadnt spent money you didnt have
on me
[21:42:06] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: what do you mean, you didn;t say you want a
girl friend? you're going on about the fact that you hate
being single 24/7
[21:42:31] cheese monst: you said you dont want a boyfriend
[21:42:50] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: i know
[21:42:53] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: that was then
[21:42:56] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: this is now
[21:43:02] cheese monst: its only a ohase
[21:43:24] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: sure about that?
[21:43:34] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: YOu never know what is a phase and what
isn't
[21:43:39] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: until you try it out
[21:43:42] cheese monst: anyway if you had been bold enough to say
that you loved me on that night i wouldnt have mentioned
naomi
[21:43:55] cheese monst: you said it was a ohase
[21:44:00] cheese monst: phase*
[21:44:19] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: i said it may just be a phase
[21:45:03] cheese monst: anyway after the naomi thing you were pissed
off with me for a bit so i have the right to be just a tiny
bit pissed off with you dont i?
[21:45:37] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: That's different, I've waited until I'm ready
for another one, you just leaped into another one with no
warning.
[21:46:15] cheese monst: it was half a term since we had actually done
anything
[21:46:30] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: Do you know how unwanted that made me feel?
How used? You were all "I love you" one minute, and then
suddenly bam, "I want to go out with naomi"
[21:46:48] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: "doing stuff" isn't a realtionship thom
[21:47:05] cheese monst: you were all i dont love anyone then bam i
love chris
[21:47:19] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: yeah, weeks later
[21:47:25] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: maybe even a few months
[21:47:43] cheese monst: as far as i knew you changed overnight
[21:47:56] •°¤*(¯`°(w)-: and my feeling grow over a period of time,
I've been talking to him and getting to like him more and
more over the last few weeks
[21:49:09] * cheese monster of the skies is now Offline