recap
hi,
i haven't updated in a while, well just a recap on things... i am still in love with andy!, he is the only guy i have ever loved and i can't get over him. it really sucks. i do have a boyfriend (mike) and i like him and all but i figured that i couldn't let my feelings for andy hold me back so i went out with mike, i called to break up with him the other day though because it just wasn't right, my feelings for Andy were holding me back and i couldn't deel with it. but mike is in juvy now... so this sucks (the juvy thing is a long story). but ya. i really like andy and even though he hurt me, i think that i would take him back, i feel stupid, but if we ever went out again we would both be more mature, i guess... IDK i really like him and i can't get over all the things that have happened between us!... I want something that i lost, but i may never get him back again
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... but then the other day i kinda started to like another kid Danny, but it will just be the same thing, i know it. it will just end up the same way as it did with mike because i have fun flirting and being with danny but at the end of the day i wish that i was with Andy, i wish that i was in his arms. also this would all hurt Danny so i think that i'm just going to tell him next time i see him that i like him but i'm still not over andy but i do want to get over him. i just can't move on right now. (because that is the way it is) grrr... i wish it wasn't that way though
a big part of me still wants to be with Andy because i want things to be like they used to be but i think it is too much to ask for and that it won't happen so the other part of me just wants to get over him, and move on... but it isn't so simple. i can't tell u how many nights i've cried myself to sleep and i think u all know how upset i am because i hate crying at school and the day after we broke up i couldn't keep in the tears and a lot of my friends were there. thanks guys for being so supportive i love u all and i don't know what i'd do without u.
omfg my feelings r so screwed up