I think It's Time...
...that I get this out in the open. I don't want to sound rude, and I don't want to sound angry but I want to get my point across to those I love.
Before I left MI, the friendship died down and seemed superficial.... what happened there? I have had one person tell me that I was Self Centered and that is why he was "done" being my friend. Is it because I was miserably living in my parents house and working a few hours a week? I tried to reach out, but most of the time I got nothing as an answer in return...
I understand if people grow apart, but was it because of something that was never discussed?
You must have though I left with out thinking about everyone else... All I could think about was everyone, not hanging out with my closest friends every week, the Denny's crew, going to Sweet Waters late at night to avoid sleeping, partners on Tuesdays... When I finally got into my car to set out in the middle of that December 17th 2008, blizzard, I cried where no one could see. I tried to say goodbye... but Goodbye sometimes means forever and I didn't want it to be that way. Even today, I cry as I retell the story of a journey I started with a long hug from a "Bird" I see a few times a year but only talk to online.
It was a need, I wasn't running away... no... I was taking another step in life to make a difference somewhere, Somewhere away from the parts of Battle Creek that I despised... My mom made me angry, sorry mom, and with work and school I couldn't hang out with my best friends. I finished my Associates, which was the most ambitious thing I had done in a few years. Distance separated me from many. Some moved to Kalamazoo, some moved to DC, some were too busy... I had my hobbies to keep me busy if work was scarce, and I never thought that would make anyone upset at me.
I love you all... and I want to sincerely apologize if I had made you angry with me... if I hurt you in anyway unknown to me... Little birdies tell me I was self centered but that's not me. I have worried and thought of everyone before me for a long time... I still think about and try to talk to many of you... if you are "Done" being my friend, I am sorry, I never meant to make you feel this way. I hope that some day you can forgive me and we can be friends.
I wouldn't have been able to get where I am with out all of you...
Victoria Leigh
Before I left MI, the friendship died down and seemed superficial.... what happened there? I have had one person tell me that I was Self Centered and that is why he was "done" being my friend. Is it because I was miserably living in my parents house and working a few hours a week? I tried to reach out, but most of the time I got nothing as an answer in return...
I understand if people grow apart, but was it because of something that was never discussed?
You must have though I left with out thinking about everyone else... All I could think about was everyone, not hanging out with my closest friends every week, the Denny's crew, going to Sweet Waters late at night to avoid sleeping, partners on Tuesdays... When I finally got into my car to set out in the middle of that December 17th 2008, blizzard, I cried where no one could see. I tried to say goodbye... but Goodbye sometimes means forever and I didn't want it to be that way. Even today, I cry as I retell the story of a journey I started with a long hug from a "Bird" I see a few times a year but only talk to online.
It was a need, I wasn't running away... no... I was taking another step in life to make a difference somewhere, Somewhere away from the parts of Battle Creek that I despised... My mom made me angry, sorry mom, and with work and school I couldn't hang out with my best friends. I finished my Associates, which was the most ambitious thing I had done in a few years. Distance separated me from many. Some moved to Kalamazoo, some moved to DC, some were too busy... I had my hobbies to keep me busy if work was scarce, and I never thought that would make anyone upset at me.
I love you all... and I want to sincerely apologize if I had made you angry with me... if I hurt you in anyway unknown to me... Little birdies tell me I was self centered but that's not me. I have worried and thought of everyone before me for a long time... I still think about and try to talk to many of you... if you are "Done" being my friend, I am sorry, I never meant to make you feel this way. I hope that some day you can forgive me and we can be friends.
I wouldn't have been able to get where I am with out all of you...
Victoria Leigh