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I have a project to do and I've changed it to Christianity on Portland. It was originally Christianity in Exeter but then I couldn't get to Exeter. I don't have much longer to do it and I still don't really know what I'm doing. I guess I will have to go to church! Any help is most welcomed.
It's so I can get my degree, but I've realised that I don't want to do it. I want to forget about my degree and move on, I want it all to be over. But if I don't do this project I won't get my degree and it will always hang over me, plus my parents would absolutely kill me!
I wish I could talk about my lack of enthusiasm for this project, why I don't care about getting a degree after three years of work, why I don't feel motivated to do anything, let alone look for a job and think about my future. But I'm not sure of all the answers and when I think about it I get all upset, so I know if I actually tried to talk about it I would end up in tears. I'm just not sure why I'm crying.
Since my parents went away I've felt tired all the time, getting hours of sleep and still feeling like I need more. I know people think I'm lazy, but when I was still in Exeter I would always be up by around half nine/ten. Now I struggle to get out of bed at midday! I don't find it easy to get into a routine as I work evenings and when I get home at half eleven I'm hungry so then it takes even longer for me to wind down and feel sleepy.
I'm feeling the need to run away from everything. Go to some far off land where my troubles can't follow. But we all know it doesn't work like that - I just have to get this project out of the way and then maybe I can move on.
It's so I can get my degree, but I've realised that I don't want to do it. I want to forget about my degree and move on, I want it all to be over. But if I don't do this project I won't get my degree and it will always hang over me, plus my parents would absolutely kill me!
I wish I could talk about my lack of enthusiasm for this project, why I don't care about getting a degree after three years of work, why I don't feel motivated to do anything, let alone look for a job and think about my future. But I'm not sure of all the answers and when I think about it I get all upset, so I know if I actually tried to talk about it I would end up in tears. I'm just not sure why I'm crying.
Since my parents went away I've felt tired all the time, getting hours of sleep and still feeling like I need more. I know people think I'm lazy, but when I was still in Exeter I would always be up by around half nine/ten. Now I struggle to get out of bed at midday! I don't find it easy to get into a routine as I work evenings and when I get home at half eleven I'm hungry so then it takes even longer for me to wind down and feel sleepy.
I'm feeling the need to run away from everything. Go to some far off land where my troubles can't follow. But we all know it doesn't work like that - I just have to get this project out of the way and then maybe I can move on.