The Truth About Heaven, Is It Rains Here All The Time Without You
I need a change of pace.
I've spent so much time looking for a great job this summer, only for my one true source of information to tell me that I should go to DC for the summer. I don't know why but I just don't think I'm ready for DC. Which is unnerving in itself considering I'm spending the entire summer there next year. So that's confusing. I just dont think I'm ready to start saving the world yet... not when I'm pretty sure I can't save myself. I was actually thinking about applying to this program in Northern Ireland post-graduation to study Peace and Conflict resolution. Even though it's not the country I've refrained my knowledge to, as Russia has a special place with me, but it sounded like a pretty great program. So I don't know where I'm going t end up, but it'll sure be interesting. I have so many dreams... but I'm not sure any of them will come true. I've worked so hard all these years, and all just to wonder about questions that will never be answered.
I have friends in Iraq whom I worry about all the time, and all this time I've never been worried about the friends at home. After VT, I worry about them both equally as much. That worries me. I'm worried about everything. Ugh, I miss my youth. In my head when I sit in classes some days, I daze out and wonder what would I do. I have nightmares about it. I don't know why. The only person I knew I had met once, I had no loved ones there. But I'm so sad for all the people who did. I don't know why this is on my mind as much as it is, but it's on it alot more than other things taht should be.
I bought timeshare with my family this year. Down at Disney, PJ and I are going away in October, maybe with some friends maybe alone, to use it for a week : ) It'll be almost two years since we started going together. I'm so happy with him. Some days I wonder why it took me so long to realise how amazing he was... But, those thoughts are wasted on the happy ones that overcome it. Anyway.
I have British Literature... Some learning about Political Systems... some Contemporary International Relations.. and then a nap to catch before working til midnight : )
miss you guys.
I've spent so much time looking for a great job this summer, only for my one true source of information to tell me that I should go to DC for the summer. I don't know why but I just don't think I'm ready for DC. Which is unnerving in itself considering I'm spending the entire summer there next year. So that's confusing. I just dont think I'm ready to start saving the world yet... not when I'm pretty sure I can't save myself. I was actually thinking about applying to this program in Northern Ireland post-graduation to study Peace and Conflict resolution. Even though it's not the country I've refrained my knowledge to, as Russia has a special place with me, but it sounded like a pretty great program. So I don't know where I'm going t end up, but it'll sure be interesting. I have so many dreams... but I'm not sure any of them will come true. I've worked so hard all these years, and all just to wonder about questions that will never be answered.
I have friends in Iraq whom I worry about all the time, and all this time I've never been worried about the friends at home. After VT, I worry about them both equally as much. That worries me. I'm worried about everything. Ugh, I miss my youth. In my head when I sit in classes some days, I daze out and wonder what would I do. I have nightmares about it. I don't know why. The only person I knew I had met once, I had no loved ones there. But I'm so sad for all the people who did. I don't know why this is on my mind as much as it is, but it's on it alot more than other things taht should be.
I bought timeshare with my family this year. Down at Disney, PJ and I are going away in October, maybe with some friends maybe alone, to use it for a week : ) It'll be almost two years since we started going together. I'm so happy with him. Some days I wonder why it took me so long to realise how amazing he was... But, those thoughts are wasted on the happy ones that overcome it. Anyway.
I have British Literature... Some learning about Political Systems... some Contemporary International Relations.. and then a nap to catch before working til midnight : )
miss you guys.